hey hey hey....waddup..k...first things first...im damn exhausted...pulled my tigh muscle..goddamn...but in all...had fun playin soccer today...again..yea...again...in the rain..again...yeap..u got it rite there...again...before that go beach road with farhan to buy...guess what...a fuckin shoe...and it cost 16 bucks...and i got to know it's sold in bedok oso..fuckin hell...yea...niwaes...this two days...i realised that i had a few really good friends...and yesterday...chattin to her made me smile...hee...thanksss!!mmuaakkkz...u made my dayy...oh yea and dinah..thanks again fer buyin me that ralph lauren silver perfume again....!!!thanks a million....hmm..tomorrow tot of goin to watch movie..but so far onli eug wanna go..so...thinks not goin too bright...and to you...just hang on tite k?he mite change the way he is...take care!!

So quiet

another wasted night,

the television steals the conversation

exhale,

another wasted breath,

again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired

cause if it's more than that I feel that I might breakout of touch,

out of time.

Please send me anything but signals that are mixed

cause I can't read your rolling eyesout of touch,

are we out of time?

Close lipped

another goodnight kiss

is robbed of all it's passion,

your grip

another time,

is slack

it leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow

maybe you'll feel better then

maybe we'll be better then

so what's another day

when I can't bear these nights of thoughts

of going on without you

this mood of yours is temporary

it seems worth the wait

to see your smile again

out of the corner of your eye

won't be the only way you'll look at me then.

hey hey hey.....gosh...damn pooped today...well kinda had funn playin in the rain...help me forget abt all my troubles and stuff...it helps you know...played soccer and then rounders...but still...it didnt entirely made my troubles vanish...*poof*..nope...it was still lingering in my mind..no matter how hard i try..i cant make it disappear..feel like im going through a mental breakdown or sum shit...but nahh...i dun think soo..im strong...but to be safe...*hope i dun be like kuok en*...nooooo...that'll be the day i die...its not worth living life as kuok en...no way jose...today morning slept at 5....had a super deep sleep and it seemed a lifetime..i kept on wakin up every ten minutes thinkin it was time to go to school...strange...i'm in disarray...and as for u dinah..its not that ure wat a fren but the thing is u got brad and im sure time will be spent more with him and u will be concern abt him more...i dun wanna be selfish..its just not right..all of u guys have a wonderful life to lead...i have my fucking curfews this that...its like im living behind bars...dinah...thanks niwaes for listenin to me eyy...made me abit better..but not much...still in sluggish mode..cant shift my gears..maybe im just too exhausted...maybe...listenin to all of the occurance around me made my heart sank...got about knowin a few things yesterday..so far nothin today..thank god...did not talk much today also...rainy...what a weather to spent the whole day...droopy...can't wait fer school to end so i could get myself away from this fuckin school...which is totally dip shit...the most fucked up school i ever been in...then its a whole new life fer me...for now...just gotta bare with it....chiao adios

hey hey hey..back again..fer the 2nd time...today..well...it was abt 2 hrs ago since i last blogged and here i am bloggin again..long one too i guess...i hope... i wish...hmm...had a sms conversation with dinah and the first thing i ask what is the things that u hate abt me?she said nothin...come on mann..there must be somethin pple hate abt me...than i asked am i being too nice?and so we chatted..this agenda has always been runnin tru my mind ever since i got to know abt somethin...am i bein too nice that pple don't really get what my true intentions are?sometimes i think yea...maybe so..a situation is this a gal whom im gettin close with and i wanna get close to her...so flirtations occur and she plays along thinkin that i am just being nice and foolin ard and not knowin what my real intentions are...and in the end i'm the one being hurt...but take note its an example only so dont come knockin on my door askin hu is it...maebe its time fer me to change hu i use to be...maybe what they say nice guys finish last is really true...for all i noe...i always finish last cause im the one who always give in...aint that rite eugene...dinah said to tell her that i like her...isnt it too early to go ard tellin her tat i like her?and by the time i realise she dont get my real intentions its already too late...she wound up bein in another man's arms...to jio a gal there is a process rite?tell me if im wrong..well i am goin thru tat process...and i was only abt to pass first grade when things took a twist...i faltered...i guessed...maebe need to speed up the process or be straight forward...best of all change my personality so pple noe what i really wanna it to be...its killin me tryin to noe where i went wrong or did i?dinah oso said that i should ask her what she thinks abt me and to tell her that i admire her...fuck..isnt that like so vague...or wadeva word that is appropriate...what if afta i ask her what she think abt me then she say err ure such a good fren!frens for life...lemme ask you...WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?i cant possibly tell her that i admire her..aint that dumb...aint that gonna hurt me more??well soon im gonna shed my ol' me and be new me i guess...afta o's no more haikal...its gonna be haikel with a brand new attitude...but dont worry..it wont be dat drastic..just dat i will be more transparent and easier to understand at...so chiao amigo..

hey hey hey....hmm...kinda not in da mo0d t0day...so jus bare with me kayy??or u can fuck off...hmm...t0day is a fuckin looooong day...and i mean fuckin long day...wtf...a maths students no need come inless take mt again...wtf xia...shudnt have taken again...arggHH!!!FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK...then poa waste my fuckin time...well so much abt school...feelin very sluggish since yesterday nite...dunnoe why..fucked up and fucked...just dunnoe why...well..who gives a fuck abt me rite?they all have their own fuckin friends or should i say mates...close mates...u noe..as in mates that mate...well wtf...i guess im the only one alone...wif no one in despair...note:not desperate...but it would be great if i could find one....someone whom i can talk to...someone whom i can confide...someone whom i can let out my feelings...someone whom i can show my buried for so long love...its been awhile since i had a gerl...since she left me i dont know if im the same...maybe i turn out to b another person...maybe not...do rich guys turn gals on?sometimes i wonder?niwaes im not referrin to myself cause im not that reach niwae...my father still needs to work his balls off to support us...sometimes i think yea...maebe gals hav a thing or two fer rich lads...well lucky fer them...hope u get stripped by all of their fetishes fer shoppin and lots...maybe now isnt the rite time fer me to find one...maybe i shall wait...but when??that will always be the question...i dont think i can hold on fer much longer...like i said dinah...someone who smile alot might not be tt happy as u think...an example is me...i may smile all the time and crack jokes all the time...but deep inside im hurt...fucked...thats whyy i need someone to pull that dagger out which has pierced deep in my heart...i may sound selfish and self centered but fer no reason i feel like doin something that's shameful..maybe to me..well..u dunt need to noe...maybe my feelins were toyed by some...i dunnoe...i see nick and feel happy fer him..he has his whom he really loves...well good luck dude...all the best..haiz...well i just gotta grab hold of what i still have now...wait a minute...i have nothin...oh yea..there's still my friends...and i mean single friends...guys please dont be attached..hee...cause later i mite be the only one left in the circle alone...

hey hey hey...today is a damn fuckin hot dayy..and i mean hot...it rained with sun...wtf...aint that hot nuf....had ss and emaths paper2...hmm..think can laa...able to pass fer both...i hope..+fingers crossed+...arhh....den went to zeyi's crib play uno then winning eleven...undisputed champ!!beat every competitor..woo...kinda bored tho now...not anione nice to talk to online...guess they studyin...fuck.,...dun wanna study poa arhh..ahole..confirm fail liao...well...i'm kinda confused rite now....dunnoe whether what i heard frm a few of my frens are true or not..if it is then well...another one whizzed pass...goddamit...but i can manage..everthings cool..my plans goin well...feel the ache at my tummy...but its a good sign..abs growin..wooweet...soon....yea..soon gals will come crawlin too my feet...muahahha..not gonna be a fuckin failue no more...FUCK YEA.....later tonight gonna run again...as usual..then if i not lazy...open my poa book and study....



need someone quick..argh!

wooo....so far so good....my diet streak that is....3 people commented that i look slimmer now...yay....hee..it feels fuckin great to hear that afta joggind for 2 km for 2 days and playin soccer 3 straight days....on thursday played soccer frm 3 to 6,then yesterday frm 11 to 5...today 330 to 645...woot...leg until cramp....but frankly i feel good..hee...had funn just now playin soccer...eug joined me and scored a gol hee..but still i scored 6..heee...can't beat me mann..nonono...later gonna meet em...len eug nick...dunnoe at where..chill fer awhile then gonna go back watch soccer..fuck..hope man u win mann...pray hard hard..hee..wat kinda english is that...hee..fucking care laa...oh yea...i wan da bbq cd!!!!who have please tell meeeee!!!...k chiao my loyal blog fans..hee...lol

missing your bed

i neva sleep avoidin the spots that we have to spek

and this bottle of beast is takin me home

cuddling close two blankets of sheets

you're not alone

you're not discreet

make sure i know ure safely at home

reading ure note over again

that's not a word that i comprehend except when u signed it that i'll love you always

and forever...

as for now we gonna hear the saddest songs

and sit along and wonder how you're makin out

and as for i wish that i was anywhere

with anyone makin out

your hair its everywhere

screaming infidelities

and takin its wear

AHEM...ladies and gents and ants and err...and and...u....i had achieved somethin yesterday...hee....ran 2 km yesterday on my bwand new treadmill..weeee..so proud mann..fuck yea...and betta still ran on my free will...gonna run everyday...and and...shall be trim and fit anitime next month...weee..and zhen..we shall see eyy...hee...lol....waa...today's paper was super fuckin hard....first up was emaths 1...was okie but came the last part...squeeze my brain like hell...afta that took physics chem paper 1 and physics paper 2...by then my brain were off...fuck...couldnt think a shit...goddamit..gonna fuckin flunk my prelims...dammit....afta schoo went play soccer...and waa...funn...long time neva play wif em...ran like a cow bitten in the arse...practically i was the only one left runnin like a mad cow...run there run here...showin signs of improvement in my fitness...good..hee..lol...wanna be fit by end of year and play fer a club...and mr tng...no...i did ran 2km not 2m..fuck...hahah...ahole...

dang...billions of blistering barnacles!!!school was fuckin bored!!!!!!!!!!goddamit..shant hav come just now...aholes...practicall everyone dint come...my class 22 present..4/6 21 4/4 14!!!wtf...all at home study study study..or are they?!!hee....nuts to do in school..sat down slack ard...slept..listen discman..finished my graduation day speech..hee..now mrs helen lee scrutinizing it..hee..hope she liked it...wrote it in half and hour..amazing ehh..ys said it was good...well heck....niwae dinah..if ure readin this happy birthday sweet 16 aiite!!hope ure life turns all well and be successful in life..wtf...why i sound so mommy...hahah...if i got $ then i treat u bus fare kayy??hee....tomor phy chem maths!!argh!!!GODDAMMIT..gonna flunk my fucking prelims and sure enough my o's too...i am so damn worried that i wiill fail my o's that i have a back up plan..that is to do wat i love most...be a professional football player...hee..lol...u mite say i am stupid but that will do fine for me coz i slimpy love soccer...its my life...well...all i can do now is study study study until my brains go kaboomm...and PRAY LIKE THERE"S NO TOMOR!hahah....chiao mann..gotta go squeeze my brains...

Breathe in for luck,

breathe in so deep,

this air is blessed,

you share with me.

This night is wild,

so calm and dull,

these hearts they race,

from self control.

Your legs are smooth,

as they graze mine,

we're doing fine,

we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,

that your kiss might kill me.

So won't you kill me,

so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,

to break or bury,

or wear as jewelery,

which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;just lay entwined here,

undiscovered.

Safe in here from all the stupid questions.

"hey did you get some?"

Man, that is so dumb.

Stay quiet, stay near,

stay close they can't hear...

so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.

So won't you kill me,

so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,

to break or bury,

or wear as jewelery,

which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,

I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,

the dim of the soft lights,

the scent of your hair that you twirled in your finger

sand the time on the clock when we realized it's so lateand this walk that we shared together.

The streets were wet

and the gate was locked so I jumped it,

and I let you in.

And you stood at your door with your hands on my waistand you kissed me like you meant it.

And I knew that you meant it

,that you meant it,

that you meant it,

and I knew,

that you meant it,

that you meant it.

today was funn...had english prelims in th mornin and it was okayy i guess...pray hard mann that i score..weet...then afta that went to fengshan to eat with eug n mates...then we headed to zeyi's crib..his hse like mua mann..cool beans...played narutto fer the first time and then got bored so i and ryan decided to play uno...then joined chunfeng and guess wat..we gathered a huge crowd...me ryan len cf jeremy syl zy wh ys all play..hahah..fun xia...scream like hell..damn stress play this game...kana draw 10..chialat..esp when i uno liao...ass xia...then wanna finish the game damn long...hahaha...well was funn..tomor school..lookin forward to it cause hee...hmmm...wonder what...nah..its nuts...nothin interesting...

sunday...the slackest day of my week...weet...basically i slept throughout the day and ate in in between bedtime..hee...mmmm...nicee.....got to know tat some ppe were studyin fer english...wtf?!!fer wat fuck mann...well..nvm...they just wanna be xtra sure i guess...slept at ard 530 am woke up at 1230..went out to eat went back slept again until now...*yawn*sleepy...yesterday nite spent my time tokin to nick..so sad xia him..frm the looks of it he realy loves her and she treat him like fucking garbage..well all i can say is nick....fuck her!she isnt worth ure time and ure fuckin emotions...see be like me..fuck yea..single n lovin it..though at times i miss havin a relationship and needin someone to hug but u gotta be strong..stay focus..dont think abt her coz it will hurt ya more...dont rush into things..if u really wanna make things happen let her cool her air...gerls can be a pain in the arse at times,u just gotta accept that...well...good luck my bro...anithin jus holla at me over here...i'll be glad to help...signin off..

heyy...its been awhile since i last tagged...hee...busy arhh...fuckin dnt...had to fuckin complete it by today...and all those late nite hrs doin dnt..fuckin hell...and my teacher say i hopeless...fuck...at least i put a fucki effort to do rite?and my dad and sis got so fuckin irritating xia...keep on pestering me to d dnt..I KNOW LAA DAMMIT...hee..hmm..jus now was nice..went to watch movie with zhen dna and eug...heee..watch DODGEBALL!!woot...fuckin hilarious mann...then got this time when zhen and dna both laughed so loud that th whole theatre was lookin at us...fuck..embarrasing xia..and the woman behind us were so noisy..fuckin hell..like mother like daughter...the show freakin funny...haha...a big guy named michelle...wtf..hmm...well thats abt it...hungry now

lalalalala...just had a freakin haircut...goddammit...tomorrow school!!fuck fuck fuck fuck...arghh!!!arse xia..one week of hdaes my bloody arse...everyday got school...dnt 830 till 430...wtf...see choo face until sian...fuck...still have lotsa stuff to do fer my folio and the due is tuesday..wtf..and every now and then my dad say finish ure folio la...knn...irritating xia..bloody hell..then that choo everytime call me dad....knn...call me la idiot..stoopid burger!!...heee...hmm....tat be all laa...sian laa!!!nobody online to talk too..knn..fuck sia u all..heee

weeettt!!!wooo...today kinda shiok...first of all my parents away till saturday...aint tat gweat?gonna be hell all da way!!!yea!heee...so just now cabot dnt den went to east coast...wif farhan bashar usop ayul kecik and izad..haha...fun fun fun...hee....fer the first time in my life played skimboarding...nice xia..but hurt my arse in the process and cut myself too at the foot...then we jumped off by the jetty...hahhaha...funny xia...at the side we danced stripped then jump off...hahaha...den out of the blue moon it rained...FUCK...the rain painful xia..like torpedoes...piak piak piak..argh..we all chiong back...hahah..then it stopped,continued where we stopped..heee....then i bashar and farhan went back...heee....tonight slackin wif len eug maebe...duno go where...hmm...so tats abt it laa..lazy wanaa write long2....so fuck k..

kuang kuang kuang....ahhh..tired xiaa...fuckk....hmm...had dnt in da mornin..wtf....fuckin boring xia...fer nearly 2 hrs...dat dirtbag or shuld i say mr kuniang tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok...zzzz...erk...tok tok tok tok and tok...(takin a sip of coffee)..ahh...heee...so buay tahan..i cabot...hahaha...during lunch break...so did a bunch of pple...when i say bunch its not 4 or 5 its like 10 to 12...hahah..in the end all play soccer...hahah..that is when the fuckin drama fuckin started...len open shoe so can kick easier..5 min later he slipped and his fuckin blister split open..wtf...fuckin gross xia..knn...he poured water and said pain..but hell is to come..hahaha...funnie xia..afta playin we went to chill and fran suggested to buy this chinese medication fer len to put...but he mus be prepared fer the worst..haha...put one drop..he screamed...WAAA........AaaRGHHHHHhhh!!!hahaha...fuck fuck fuck...funnie xia..and we all got it on video via zeyi hp...hahah...funnie sia the reaction...so here i am laughin at lenn..wahahahhahaha.....

heyy....waddup my homies...heee...step hip hop xia...wtf...well today is sunday and as usual im fuckin tired...since its onli in the afterno0n..me gonna blab abt yesterday...hmm...actually nothin great happen yesterday...met up with kamal ahmad farhan usop and brad to play laughing gas but in the end didnt buy it cause all shop fuckin out of stock...fuck xia....was realli lookin forward to it...afta tat went to play soccer at the usual arena...had fun...n0w my b0dy fuckin aching....heee...on my way back met up with huda and dinah and guess wat they fuckin took my 4 bucks...shit arse..well nvm..im a generous person..hee...went back..had forty winks then went to parkway to buy food and pc game...fucking hell...my comp spoil..cheesebun..waste my 39 bucks buyin the fuckin game...knn..then went back watched tv and then rang dinah up tohave a conference b/w dinah me usop bashar wanzhen..oh ya and tat ever irritating kamal..haha...no offence...its jus...yea...you....heee...well..tats abt it..n0w im gonna rest..fuckin aching xia my body..especially my right ankle...

woot....waddup...in the mood now...so here goes...(cracking fingers and toes)AHEM....ahhh...DO.....hmm...today is friday....hahah...fuck...sian xia...but somethin GWEAT HAPPEN....guess wat...hahah....chemistry only one period..hahah...coz got spring cleanin...and ok la...not bad...once in a while become coolies...haha...hmm...and then afta school go chill wif mua mates...and later met up with zhen,dna and brad at interchange...hahah...wanna watch movie wif em and eug and nick and len and ryan and ure uncle bodo!...hee....it was me zhen dna and brad onli at first cos the rest go tamp to go buy dildos..hee...so planned to eat at mac princess below..but tat dumb dumb kuku neneh zhen heard tat ttx was at bk...she went all the way there to eat...dunnoe wat was the real reason la...maebe she like the burger there or maebe like the cock eye guy workin there...heee...hmm....onli god noes...hmm...then went into the theatre...watch avp...the show damn kuku stupiid...like corny xia..humans and predators work together???wtf...hmm..the silly gerl beside me until sleep...hahah....was fun..disturb dna all the way..haha..afta that proceeded to garden hill there to meet bunga,bopeng and dagu...haha...play dare and wtf my belly button got fuckin burnt...haha..but it was fun..heee....HOPE U GUYS HAD FUN COZ I HAD TO FORK OUT FUCKIN A LOT OF MONEY AYE!!

heyy......woot....its been awhile since i last post...hahah...kinda lazy arhh...wtf...im havin fever now...fuck...so damn fucking bored at hm...eat sleep eat sleep...tats all i did today..wad a way to spent ure hdaes...wtf...hee....err...to start things...had a great weekend...went to mich bbq on friday...had lotsa funn...then chilled with my mates..haha...crazy ass they all...hmm....i lazy wanna type arh...so peace...nxt time when i got the energy i'l type an essay fer ya'll...

heyy......woot....its been awhile since i last post...hahah...kinda lazy arhh...wtf...im havin fever now...fuck...so damn fucking bored at hm...eat sleep eat sleep...tats all i did today..wad a way to spent ure hdaes...wtf...hee....err...to start things...had a great weekend...went to mich bbq on friday...had lotsa funn...then chilled with my mates..haha...crazy ass they all...hmm....i lazy wanna type arh...so peace...nxt time when i got the energy i'l type an essay fer ya'll...

heyy......woot....its been awhile since i last post...hahah...kinda lazy arhh...wtf...im havin fever now...fuck...so damn fucking bored at hm...eat sleep eat sleep...tats all i did today..wad a way to spent ure hdaes...wtf...hee....err...to start things...had a great weekend...went to mich bbq on friday...had lotsa funn...then chilled with my mates..haha...crazy ass they all...hmm....i lazy wanna type arh...so peace...nxt time when i got the energy i'l type an essay fer ya'll...

heyy......woot....its been awhile since i last post...hahah...kinda lazy arhh...wtf...im havin fever now...fuck...so damn fucking bored at hm...eat sleep eat sleep...tats all i did today..wad a way to spent ure hdaes...wtf...hee....err...to start things...had a great weekend...went to mich bbq on friday...had lotsa funn...then chilled with my mates..haha...crazy ass they all...hmm....i lazy wanna type arh...so peace...nxt time when i got the energy i'l type an essay fer ya'll...