hey hey hey..back again..fer the 2nd time...today..well...it was abt 2 hrs ago since i last blogged and here i am bloggin again..long one too i guess...i hope... i wish...hmm...had a sms conversation with dinah and the first thing i ask what is the things that u hate abt me?she said nothin...come on mann..there must be somethin pple hate abt me...than i asked am i being too nice?and so we chatted..this agenda has always been runnin tru my mind ever since i got to know abt somethin...am i bein too nice that pple don't really get what my true intentions are?sometimes i think yea...maybe so..a situation is this a gal whom im gettin close with and i wanna get close to her...so flirtations occur and she plays along thinkin that i am just being nice and foolin ard and not knowin what my real intentions are...and in the end i'm the one being hurt...but take note its an example only so dont come knockin on my door askin hu is it...maebe its time fer me to change hu i use to be...maybe what they say nice guys finish last is really true...for all i noe...i always finish last cause im the one who always give in...aint that rite eugene...dinah said to tell her that i like her...isnt it too early to go ard tellin her tat i like her?and by the time i realise she dont get my real intentions its already too late...she wound up bein in another man's arms...to jio a gal there is a process rite?tell me if im wrong..well i am goin thru tat process...and i was only abt to pass first grade when things took a twist...i faltered...i guessed...maebe need to speed up the process or be straight forward...best of all change my personality so pple noe what i really wanna it to be...its killin me tryin to noe where i went wrong or did i?dinah oso said that i should ask her what she thinks abt me and to tell her that i admire her...fuck..isnt that like so vague...or wadeva word that is appropriate...what if afta i ask her what she think abt me then she say err ure such a good fren!frens for life...lemme ask you...WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?i cant possibly tell her that i admire her..aint that dumb...aint that gonna hurt me more??well soon im gonna shed my ol' me and be new me i guess...afta o's no more haikal...its gonna be haikel with a brand new attitude...but dont worry..it wont be dat drastic..just dat i will be more transparent and easier to understand at...so chiao amigo..