hey hey hey....hmm...kinda not in da mo0d t0day...so jus bare with me kayy??or u can fuck off...hmm...t0day is a fuckin looooong day...and i mean fuckin long day...wtf...a maths students no need come inless take mt again...wtf xia...shudnt have taken again...arggHH!!!FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK...then poa waste my fuckin time...well so much abt school...feelin very sluggish since yesterday nite...dunnoe why..fucked up and fucked...just dunnoe why...well..who gives a fuck abt me rite?they all have their own fuckin friends or should i say mates...close mates...u noe..as in mates that mate...well wtf...i guess im the only one alone...wif no one in despair...note:not desperate...but it would be great if i could find one....someone whom i can talk to...someone whom i can confide...someone whom i can let out my feelings...someone whom i can show my buried for so long love...its been awhile since i had a gerl...since she left me i dont know if im the same...maybe i turn out to b another person...maybe not...do rich guys turn gals on?sometimes i wonder?niwaes im not referrin to myself cause im not that reach niwae...my father still needs to work his balls off to support us...sometimes i think yea...maebe gals hav a thing or two fer rich lads...well lucky fer them...hope u get stripped by all of their fetishes fer shoppin and lots...maybe now isnt the rite time fer me to find one...maybe i shall wait...but when??that will always be the question...i dont think i can hold on fer much longer...like i said dinah...someone who smile alot might not be tt happy as u think...an example is me...i may smile all the time and crack jokes all the time...but deep inside im hurt...fucked...thats whyy i need someone to pull that dagger out which has pierced deep in my heart...i may sound selfish and self centered but fer no reason i feel like doin something that's shameful..maybe to me..well..u dunt need to noe...maybe my feelins were toyed by some...i dunnoe...i see nick and feel happy fer him..he has his whom he really loves...well good luck dude...all the best..haiz...well i just gotta grab hold of what i still have now...wait a minute...i have nothin...oh yea..there's still my friends...and i mean single friends...guys please dont be attached..hee...cause later i mite be the only one left in the circle alone...