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stupid charger.cost me 129 bucks just to get a new charger.reason being the head of the charger broke off.farrkk.

have been trying to fill up my time these past few days.and i think im doing quite well.haha.two days ago me apek and kamal went to changi to disturb bapok.hahah.but actually they are really nice people who are like us trying to find money to eat.but it was a cool experience though.then the following day we went around looking at creepy houses and honestly it really creeped me out.hair was standing.then afterwards we went to airport just to walk around and we pretended to be participants of the amazing race.hilarious i tell you.

but always even i did my best to fill up the hours of my day,there's always the few seconds when i just happened to think of you.you never fail to appear in my thoughts.when im daydreaming,eating,or whatever.

it saddens me to feel that our energy are repelling.these thoughts are like a manifest.eating me up day by day.where are you.come back here

manifest

stupid charger.cost me 129 bucks just to get a new charger.reason being the head of the charger broke off.farrkk.

have been trying to fill up my time these past few days.and i think im doing quite well.haha.two days ago me apek and kamal went to changi to disturb bapok.hahah.but actually they are really nice people who are like us trying to find money to eat.but it was a cool experience though.then the following day we went around looking at creepy houses and honestly it really creeped me out.hair was standing.then afterwards we went to airport just to walk around and we pretended to be participants of the amazing race.hilarious i tell you.

but always even i did my best to fill up the hours of my day,there's always the few seconds when i just happened to think of you.you never fail to appear in my thoughts.when im daydreaming,eating,or whatever.

it saddens me to feel that our energy are repelling.these thoughts are like a manifest.eating me up day by day.where are you.come back here

i know i suck at it

i can see every part of my life just crumbling down before me.i hate it.i hate it especially when im helpless to it.the silence is killing me.the virus is infecting my blood and at the end of the day i will break down.

i need you here. i need you to help me go through this rough patch.but you seemed so distant recently even if your just beside me.

dropped out of school.what a waste.but im taking private diploma.so yea.alls not lost yea.but still.its not an easy thing to just drop out of school and not being screamed infidelities at you.its drepressing at times to hear the things people say about you.sometimes worst still to you.im lonely here in this avenue of darkness.all alone and freezing.

you've always been my sun to brighten up my days.my moon to shine me out of darkness.my star to show how grateful i am to you.my heart to pump my heart so that i can live everyday hearing to you laugh talk whine and everything about you.i miss your laughter.the laughter that always brings a smile to me.

but now since you've been distant,im crumbling.like a cookie being crushed.crushed by my own mistake.a mistake i dread.

been

been crying out your name lately.
been trying to figure out what went wrong
cause i know clearly things are different now.i dont want them to be different.i want the way it was previously when we were very happy.
been an ass to you i know.but im trying my best to learn from such mistakes.im sorry for what ive said to you and stuff.now i finally understand everything and i know i can accustom myself to that.
days have been dark eversince things changed.the nights feel long,and the days seems lonely.you are as close as me to my nose but yet you felt so far.i tried to reach you but i was scared.i tried to call out your name and ask if everything was alright but i was terrified.everytime i wanna ask you such things or do such thing my lips went numb.i know everything happens for a reason and i wanna know whats the reason for this.if i did went wrong somewhere i wanna know what was it.

its been a long while

so close yet so far away.

hey.its been shitty months since ive last updated.days have been usual go out have lunch dinner and then go back.but its been fun especially if u hang out with good company!dont you think so?

yea.its eons since i last touched my laptop.screw shit.windows crash and had to reformat everything.EVERYTHING is gone.EVERYthing.like fuck.well.im now on a journey to find a school to study cause ive been kicked out of poly.asscrack.howells.i really have to search for a school soon before its too late.
my rooms in a mess now cause all my stuff all over.hmm.