i know i suck at it

i can see every part of my life just crumbling down before me.i hate it.i hate it especially when im helpless to it.the silence is killing me.the virus is infecting my blood and at the end of the day i will break down.

i need you here. i need you to help me go through this rough patch.but you seemed so distant recently even if your just beside me.

dropped out of school.what a waste.but im taking private diploma.so yea.alls not lost yea.but still.its not an easy thing to just drop out of school and not being screamed infidelities at you.its drepressing at times to hear the things people say about you.sometimes worst still to you.im lonely here in this avenue of darkness.all alone and freezing.

you've always been my sun to brighten up my days.my moon to shine me out of darkness.my star to show how grateful i am to you.my heart to pump my heart so that i can live everyday hearing to you laugh talk whine and everything about you.i miss your laughter.the laughter that always brings a smile to me.

but now since you've been distant,im crumbling.like a cookie being crushed.crushed by my own mistake.a mistake i dread.