heyy.

don't know why my body's been aching really bad.

to a certain extend its untolerable.

-=-

i feel the anguish.

its been on me real hard.

its always coming down on me.

non-stop.

only this morning my beloved cat died.

suspected of shock.

that was the first thing i knew when i woke up.

what a way to start your day huh.

i've been havin frequent headaches.

pulsating headaches.

its believed to be because of stress.

i'm not too sure myself stress of what.

maybe lately i've been thinkin too much.

too much of nothin.

-=-

had a sad dream yesterday night.

cant really remember what i dreamt but i knew she slipped away.

i woke up in the morning feeling really sad.

it was as if it was really true.

i cant help but be paranoid.

but it didnt bother me much tho.

-=-

verse

im an emotional wreck.

looks like i've been pinned back.

tormenting my days

breaking the water by the bay.

want out of this desolation.

please put me in isolation.

will you entice me away.

from this anvil chorus.

chorus

i'm sinking from my own stigma.

take this twinge from me as far.

or i'll languish.

in a state of depression.

you saw me get hit by a car.

i guess my life will only go this far.

'grey sky"

just walk away

from this place of misery

turn to me

when the sky's turning grey

close your eyes

for i'm here to stay

but don't you cry

when i'm away

I can feel you slipping away

Please dont leave

me for another day

I can feel you slipping away

Please don't go

come back here

Blinded by the light

lightning brings you fright

just grab me

everything's gonna be alright

Close your eyes

for i'm here to stay

But dont you cry

when i'm away

I can feel you slipping away

Please don't leave

me for another day

I can feel you slipping away

Please don't go

come back here

-=-

there.

a new song.

guess who inspired me to write this song.

well only that person will now.

haha.

so this song kinda revolves around her.

tomor cmaths test2.

argh!goddamn.

after which im either gonna have breakfast with her or go sim lim with the gang.

now im in a dilemma.

dang.

weee.

chiao

spent time with lela just now.

haha.

it poured.

and water sprinkled at us.

wee.

was fun.

remember to take ur medication ok.

and you need to rest more.

i have been wanting to write a song about rain and stuff but twice i wrote it couldnt find a melody for it.

shit.

then just now when i was sitting down with her.

it poured.

and there was thunder.

suddenly i felt the inspired to write.

but there was no pen and paper.

shit ass.

term test is tomor!

i'm slaughtered man.

as good as gone.

-=-

nowadays with how im living my life.

when i try to imagine what im gonna be like in about 10 years.

i cant see anything.

i wonder whats that suppose to mean.

its like i cant imagine anything.

zero.

sometimes it scares me you know.

-=-

turn to me.

when the clouds turn grey.

walk away.

when the trees starts to sway.

shiver in the thunders of rain.

wilter with the emptiness rain.

you put me down.

all u left was a stain.

slipping away

your slipping away

all our hopes and dreams are savaged.hmm.dunno why i put that also.

-=-

howells.

saturday was fine.

although it started out like shit.

woke up on the wrongside of the bed.

a lot of people cancelled plans with me since friday.

first was supposed to meet lela in the afternoon.

cancelled.

then at 3.

cancelled also.

was supposed to meet faliq.

cancelled.

the next day.

ali cancelled on me.

then was about to meet hamzah,he cancelled it too.

while waiting for yazid.

yea.

he cancelled too.

grr.

luckily im patient.

bahh.

if not i would have been freaking out.

term test comin.and i have yet to touch anything yet.

im dead meat.

talked to my sis about me changing course.well she seemed as tho she agreed.

great.

-=-

tonight i feel a whole lot better after playing soccer.

been feeling really lethargic to an extend being moody.

but now i feel bubbly once again.

wee.

-=-

just now while i was alone at 506.

i sat down,enjoyed the breeze and started to think.

think about what i've been doing all my life.

and i realized i've done nothin actually.

not anything to be proud of.

den i started to think about girls.

well now.

fuck the dinahs,fuck the marlinas,fuck the fadyas,fuck the flings.

no more of this nonsense shit.

i've got no time anymore.

i need to find a girlfriend and settle down.

real soon.

but how?

where?

haha.

well i'll know the answer when the time comes.

-=-

i need new shoes.

i need new perfumes.

i need new tops.

i need new bottoms.

i need new lenses.

i need new guitar.

I WANNA GO SHOP AT JB!

who wants to tag along!

burrr.

the outing to jb was cancelled twice.

first because got soccer.

the second time is the most sickening.

hokai.

on that very dreadful day.i woke up very early at about 9.

then reached hafiz house at about 11 and we sat around.

we had to wait for kamal to get ready then can we go make our way.

and this is the fucked up part.

as we were about to go make our way to jb.(we were still at hafiz's house)

hafiz couldnt find his passport.

u have to be there to see the look on my face.

i didnt know whether to cry or scream at him.

its like wtf.

u know we're going jb a week in advance.

for crying out loud.

go find your freaking passport la dei earlier.

not when we are going to go then find.

stupid asshole.

biatch.

-=-

as i update this blog.

my bro is in front of me playing the ps2 like a small kid.

hahha.

cheerios.

body ache!

arghh!

haha.

woke up this morning with chest ache.

i think of because of the push ups i did yesterday.

hahaha.

i did about 4.

haha.

kental sia.

just now went for training.

had fun.

but tiring ah.

now my arms are shivering.

weeee.

but all for a good cause.

nyehehe.

tired to type.

bye

feel like shit the pass few days.

damn.

take it away.

-=-

she's not here to stay.

do you hear me cry.

and do you know why.

your slipping away slipping away.

i dont have a say.

it was all a lie.

rain drops from the sky.

your slipping away slipping away.

the world's spinning around.

and my world's upside down.

u told me we'd be ok.

but your slipping away slipping away.

-=-

today is a day to forget.

void.

shagedelic.

feel like as if i just ran 10 miles.

freaking tired.

bearghhh.

hate this.

lazy wanna say anything else.

bye

had fun today.

yeap.

tho didnt get to see you.

i wanna see you soon ah.

can?

hee.

anyways.

met up with apek den proceeded to school to study.

studied for about an hour and went off to starbucks with ed apek and hamzah.

today starbucks havin an open house.

so from 5 to 7 they having free drinks.

shiok.

haha.

was later joined by kahar,umar,rahman,hafiz,yazid,faliq,julia,ali,raf.

i went to take 3 drinks sia.

haha.

so malu.

two for me.

one for iylia.

hurhur.

we sat down there from 5 to about 9 plus.

tiring sia.

laughed laughed laughed.

play murderer.

hurhur.

shiok.

now im damn pooped.

miss you bi.

wee.

had fun hanging out with rahman and apek today.

hahaha.

real fun.

they should know why.

hehe.

sheeshaed just now at arab st.

before that went to see lelaa and eda.

buy fags la.

hurhur.

then we made our way to arab st.

laughed our way there.

then the sheesha came in.

haha.

there were two couches.one facing the crowd one not.

and we were facing the crowd.

so i tot mcm paiseh la.

so i shifted.

den when rahman shifted with the sheesha.

the thing dropped!

and went "keplanngg!"

haha.

we all were like goodness gracious me.

wtf.

die sia.

haha.

i was speechless.

rahman just stood there.

shellshocked.

the guy came in was and went.
"do you know how much this cost?"

the way he sound was as if it cost 200 bucks.

the answer was the 35.

i happily say.nvm we'll pay.

but then in the end he said no need to pay.

well thank you mr turkey guy.

we just hanged out.

talk about lotsa stuff.

was really fun.

we should hang out again.

this sunday we plan to go to jb!

who wanna follow??

boo.

pheww.

came home landed on my bed.

feeling damn awful.

tired.

tired to an extreme extend.

should i say lethargic?

no.

i dont think so.

more of sick.

heck.

---

mystified persona.

not too sure of what that means actually.

i feel so down suddenly.

fuck.

i wanna run away.

from everything.

everyone.

leave this place until people thinks my life is non-existance.

---

shit la.

my nose got a lot of shit.

---

vindicated.

You say you want

Diamonds on a ring of gold

You say you want

Your story to remain untold
But all the promises we make

From the cradle to the grave

When all I want is you
You say you'll give me

A highway with no one on it

Treasure just to look upon it

All the riches in the night
You say you'll give me

Eyes in a moon of blindness

A river in a time of dryness

A harbour in the tempest

But all the promises we make

From the cradle to the grave

When all I want is you
You say you want

Your love to work out right

To last with me through the night
You say you want

Diamonds on a ring of gold

Your story to remain untold

Your love not to grow cold
All the promises we break

From the cradle to the grave

When all I want is you
You...all I want is...You...all I want is...You...all I want is...You...

fill me in.

fucking hell.

sakit la bodoh kaki aku.

serious.

heyy.

godfreakinghell.

im uber tired.

played soccer again just now.

howells.

i know what u guys are thinking now.

every post mention he plays soccer.

haha.

well.

fuck.

what can i do.

i feel like crying.

you know why?

cause my ankle hurts like hell.freaking hell.mutherfucker.

its swelling again.now joined by the left ankle too.

goddammit la.

now it is like very numb.

-=-

oh no.

she's taking a break from me.

freakshit.

hurhur.

well hope it ends soon and well.

hee.

luckily managed to meet up for awhile just now.

had lunch.

should have stayed back and go to airport with her.

damn.

weee.

-=-

lets sit on the shofa.

hurhur.

miss you bi.

=)