well..guess its time to squeeze my brains and squeeze all the juices out....time to study man...really...well adios..

hey hey hey.....woot...went studyin with eug just now...well had to wait for him for like 1 hour...wtf...well kinda my fault aniwaes...hee...cause i came out too early..hee..bored laa at home...heee..and fuck...the moment i opened my gate...the rain poured..and i dashed my way thru to the nearest shelter..which is like fuckin far..so basically i was wet till my balls.....ooh ya...saw and accident rite outside my house...a car with a bike..and a lady inside the car was like motionless...gosh...we went to marine parade library to study..i did emaths and eug did chem..was worthwhile cause if i was at home to study..i wont...id be sleepin..hee.....yea...my bed will always call me...haiz...hee...hmm.....what else happen eyy?nothin much reallie...well..ten days left only till the big day..fuck...scary...gosh....but im gonna enjoy this time of my life cause being grown up isnt half as fun as growin up...these are the best days of our lives...yeap...so long...take care my visitors to my blog....heee

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause
you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come WhateverWe will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

hey hey hey....its me...but a more stressed me...cause the fuckin o levels are just round my arse...fuck!!its coming...argh!!!goddamit...well..today i kinda destressed myself from all these hectic stuff...alongside me was eug len nick and zeyi..hahah...we went to wild wild wet...shiok...but to think again not really la...i still prefer jurong one...cause the ride there more fast...but with the exception to the oohlaalaa...that was the highlight of the place laa..we went there for like 8 times...hahah...and screamed like a bunch of wuss and pussies..hhaha.....today was kinda sad cause all jiobu were M.I.A....fuck....only saw one jiobu...rite len???hahaah....eurasian sial!!jio...great body and lots...pheeweet....buay tahan sia....then saw tracy...nick's fren...she got a pair of huge melons up front but sadly she's fat...ahha....then at bk whilst the guys were eating a fat fly kept on flyin and restin on nick's hair...hahah...funny sia...and nick got irritated nd tried to kill it which he failed in the end...hahah...kinda tired now...my tutor said i looked darker...dammit...fuck....eh wanzhen...if ya seein this,i wanna take another couple or more shots with you...the pic we took during graduation not nice at all cause i look like one freakin orange man...fark...so can??hee...must pay?heee

that guy in the middle is the handsomest of the 3!! 

hmm....how should i sum up today's practical?oh nvm...all i can say is im fuckin dead...especially for my chem...wtf...physics was some where there laa but chem?nono...mati!!!!i dont even know that you have to identify the gas...wtf...and the questions for chem today was like so fuckin alien..it wasnt like the ones we use to do..wtf...so...we were freakin pissed...hahah..esp. len..he shouted at ph..woot...cool...hahah..cause he interupted len's conversation with zh...well good for him...hahah...lol...kiddin...arghh...this means gonna have to put in more effort for my theory...argh!!that is not bright...fuck fuck fuck..anyway...sat down just now feelin bored so jus wandered and gaze te bright sun...ouch!yowzaa...not good fer the eyes mann..hee...well jokes aside..sat down alone...then msged mic for awhile and i realised that apart frm eug(hee)i'm basically the only one left in my social circle single mic's happy with cal..zhen with kc...dna and brad...nic and suhana...len and his SO CALLED FRIEND...its kinda sad tho..you know...mic said i still have you all...but it isnt the same havin someone to hold on to...someone to love...you can't possibly love your guy fren rite...well guess its hold on muthafucka fer a month and HELLOOOO EARTH!..gonna go all out...heee....well eug guess its left with the both of us aye...gonna storm the town when exams are over...fuck yeah!

And it's always little things

That to the surface brings

The comfort in the pain

The fear behind the smile

We lose along the way

The things we leave behind

Along the precipice Of things

we should not climb

And I'm the first in line

There's an anchor around my heart

Dragging me down

Behind the waves in silence I fall

There's a halo above my head

Spinning me 'round'

Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead

A dagger in my hand

Bleeding me dry

And it's always little things

That to the surface brings

The space you need to breathe

Before the curtain call

The light that leads the way

Before you hit the wall

The mountain that you climb

Just to take a fall

For blind among the blind

There's an anchor around my heart

Dragging me down

Beneath the waves in silence I fall

There's a halo above my head Spinning me 'round'

Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead

There's a dagger in my hand

Bleeding me dry

And all we have to lose is time

And what lose we leave behind

Stay around and we will shine

Somebody said they saw you

The person you were kissing wasn't me

And I would never ask you

I just kept it to myself
[chorus]

I don't want to know

If you're playin' me

Keep it on the low

Cuz my heart cant take it anymore

And if you're creepin'

Please don't let it show

Oooh baby, I don't want to know
I think about it when I hold you

And lookin' in your eyes I can't believe

I don't need to know the truth

Baby, keep it to yourself
[chorus]

I don't want to know

If you're playin' me

Keep it on the low

Cuz my heart cant take it anymore

And if you're creepin'

Please don't let it show

Oooh baby, I don't want to know
Did he touch you better than me

Did he watch you fall asleep

Say you walk away

Don't talk to me

Ooh don't tell me

If you're better off that way

All that I can say

Stay away from me

I don't even know your

Whereabouts or

how you movin

I know when you in the house

When you cruisin'

It's been provin'

My love you abusin'

I cant understand how a man

Got you choosin

Undecided

I came and provided

My undivided

You came and denied it

Don't even try it I know when you lyin'

Don't even do that

I know why you cryin'

Im not applyin' no pressure

Just want to let you know

That I don't wan to let you go

And I don't want to let you leave

Cant say I didn't let you breath

Gave you extra cheese

Put you in the SUV

You wanted ice

So I made you freeze

Made you hot

Like the West Indies

Last time you invest in me

Cuz if not then its best you leave

holla
[chorus]

I don't want to know

If you're playin' me

Keep it on the low

Cuz my heart cant take it anymore

And if you're creepin'

Please don't let it show

Oooh baby, I don't want to know

If you're playin' me

Keep it on the low

Cuz my heart cant take it anymore

And if you're creepin'

Please don't let it show

Oooh baby, I don't want to know

If you're playin' me

Keep it on the low

Cuz my heart cant take it anymore

And if you're creepin'

Please don't let it show

Oooh baby, I don't want to know

heyheyhey...woot...today last day of school...yeahh...graduatated just now...wooo...but kinda sad really...tears were shed alot...and i mean alot...i had to fold my pants up to my knees...hee...lol...well...my speech turned out okayy....kinda pleasing response...but shamir was DA MAN...spoke like the rock...cool man he...casual like fuck...well...niwaes...before the speech i told mrs liew to bring a box of tissue cause my speech would make her cry...i was just playin ard..and she said dun bedek...hahah...guess what...when we walked ard the hall to shake hands...she was in tears and said "you really made me cry" and gave me a hug...honestly...i nearly burst to but i control...i cant cry in public...paiseh..hee...then alot of teachers say my speech was good...i hope tat was true..hee..yay...i think sara broke out first when they were singin auld lang syne then followed by zhenie...hee...well guess today would be last time the class of 4/5 be sittin in a homely classroom and joke ard...goonna miss ya guys tho hope this will not be the last day we gonna spent time together again...hope we keep in contact with each other..the two years spent together was the greatest part of life...love ya all...oh yea...after o level's gonna have lotsa plans for ya'll so please keep in contact with me aiite...gonna hold a chalet...but i need a bunch of ppl to assist me cause if not im gonna pee in my pants...well...for now adios amigos,good luck fo your exams and mucho gracias...

harlowwww!!!!ahhhh....funn...two days never go school..hee...played comp,laughing gas and shit....hahah....well after this is strictly business...study study study....books here i come...oh yea...watched oujia board just now or how the heck they spell it...watched with ryan yoo jin zhen dna and blad...ehh..brad...hee...err...the show wasn't bad...this kinda the first time i understand the storyline when watchin a korean or jap movie..hee...but i still think they should change the title to cursed because throughout the story...only twice did they play the board..wtf...that was the low of the movie...sadd...hahah...well...its kinda torture for me cause the ghost arh keep on making those screeching sound with her nails...arghh..pain...had fun..well guess this would be the last time we would be hangin out together till our big 0...hope we see each other still...yea?gonna miss ya guys aiite...really...shit...tomor is graduation day and im gonna give a fuckin speech...arghh..scared scared scared...skali got jelly legs...oh no!!didnt go for rehearsal...goddammit....i think im gonna make a fool of myself tomor...so i think im gona bring a mask....my greatest fear would be i'm afraid my speech would be like mrs song's continous blabbing...than later all will fall asleep..that will be a nightmare man...well hope my friends will be behind me...hope so...and give my all....phew

Well I just heard the news today

It seems my life is going to change

I closed my eyes,

begin to pray

Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open

Under the sunlight

Welcome to this place

I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready

To be the man I have to be

I'll take a breath,

take her by my side

We stand in awe,

we've created life

With arms wide open

Under the sunlight

Welcome to this place

I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

Now everything has changed

I'll show you love

I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

If I had just one wish

Only one demand

I hope he's not like me

I hope he understands

That he can take this life

And hold it by the hand

And he can greet the world

With arms wide open...

hey hey hey...*yawn*just woke up..ahhh....had a bood beauty sleep just now...hee...lol...frm 4 till now...shiok ehh...heee..woke up eat and here i am..hee..btw..school was err sorta dull today..spent most of my time wif eug dna and zhen..hee...laugh laugh laugh. is all we ever do...lalala....tomor comin to school i guess...damn lazy laa...well wtf..its my o's im talkin here...so gotta sacrifice i guess...a few more days and im no more a bgreenie...yahoo...but tears for all the fun we had with our friends not with the school....some gonna go other directions...well hope we still keep tabs together..then was told prom nite is still on the board..woohoo....50 50 chance...pray hard hard man that there will be a prom nite...gosh....hmm...oh ya...when woke up was told that christopher reeves died today by eug...wtf...heart failure...you know him rite...the guy who played superman..fell off a horse and got paralysed...yea him...so sad man...he was very determined to find a cure to paralysis and he died...gosh..this tells me how easy our life can end at any moment god wan it to...so live life to the fullest...mucho gracias

hey hey hey....today's my man ryan' birthday...and he came out unscaved..well..he got bad luck actually...stepped on shit and his glasses broke..well it cant get ani worst...niwae...today was the last pe session and we played soccer alongside with 4/2...hmm...my team lost...bloody hell....i hate losing...ARGH!!to make things worst i slipped aND hurt my too fuckin legs...just below the knee...knn..fuck xia...than school was bored as usual...hee...after school played soccer again...AND...guess what....was chasin the ball when banged into my fren and landed on my hip and rolled...fuck...my hip hurts like hell...fuckin hell..guess i got bad luck too..fuck...and nick learnt a lesson that not to push me when i just lost a game cause i may not be that friendly...but its nothin personal...just pissed...i just can't be on losin side be it ani games and challenges..jus dunnoe why....got that fightin spirit and my ego too...well that's abt it fot today...not much to say cause tired liao...kk..peace...

hey hey hey..today's monday...k...take back my words on saturday's post..DID go out in the end...met up with ahmad eug nick ryan len...hahah...at 1 am...they all chao cab sia..wtf...well niwae...we had fun...did the usual stuff..then we played LAUGHING GAS....hahah..funny xia...heee...laugh laugh laugh laug...eug smile until can't stop....hee..then at 4 they all went back and i slept...hee...the next day was nothin much...play ps2 all day..then today was bored...no lessons...wtf...chatted wif dna eug wz whole day..hee...then they say they not cumin to school tomoro so i guess im not goin too if only my mum let...well...i think can..con arh..hee...but at home sian arhh..so gonna go out i guess..hee..lolx....kk...gotta go...lazy wanna type liao..mucho gracias amigo

hey hey hey...what a way to spent your saturday nitee..at home...dammit...can't go out cause nick all watchin movie without me!!its my fault niwae cause i went back home like 9...and the watchin at 930...went back late frm soccer cause my cuz fell on his head while playin..lotsa blood mann...my frens all sent him to clinic and they hadta wait fer a freakin 1 hour...wtf...he could have died by then...hee...then they made their wayy back to the bball court and he kept on vomitting so me and my bro sent him to hospitall..so malu xia..me wearin shorts and smell..wtf...hee...not a wise wayy to go to hospital...luckily me cuz was doin alrite...no fracture or internal bleeding..well that's fer now...hand damn tired..in fact whole body damn tired..chiao

hey hey hey....*yawn*for the first time in 6 weeks i woke up early on a saturday mornin....gosh..somethin is cleary wrong wif me...haha...well...today goonna be tiring day again cause me gonna play soccer..yeaa...like i said soccer is my life...well...abt yesterday's post...it kept me thinkin especially after talkin to dinah who seems to be a great person to talk to nowadays...strangely...hee...err..i dunnoe...everyone or should i say nearly every gerl that i approached askin them what should i do abt it all of em would say "don't waste ure time la haikal,there a lotsa better gals out there"..ya i noe...but i need to clear my doubts first....its not really that easy to forget someone whom u love soo much ya noe...but fer now i dunnoe what my feelings are towards her...its so fuckin confusing...meabe i shuld just close my eyes wheneva she's ard...well..dinah...since you were askin wat kinda gerl i lioke...well this is it...my gerl don't have to be the prettiest gerl in the world or i know of but as long as she can make me happy and never fails to make the butterflies in my stomach go craziie...she's the one...other teeny weeny not so important things are...she has to have a great smilee..hee...crazy abt girls wif super meltin smiles that can make my knees woobly..then also she gotta be tanned...yupp..i jus realised almost all of my gfs are tanned..hee...kewl...i think laa...dunnoe...she gotta be open-minded..thats the problem wif her...damn...can be talked to easily..comfortable to be ard wif...well so far none have been close to this...so i hope anione hu thinks they can match these criteria please come to me...lolx...wadda fuck...kidding...well thats the lists basically..

well i jus hope i dunt see her today while playin soccer again..chiao

hey hey hey....TIRED....everyday xia i tired...niwaes it coz keep on playin soccer...pulled my thigh muscle...goddamn...tomor still gonna play again...that makes it err..4 or 3 days in a row..woo...soccer is my life...oh yea...guys...i'm back to my ol' me ledi...so thanks fer ure concern kayy?didnt noe i had great bunch of frens till now...love ya'll...u guys made me realize not to give up hope to easily..there is still lotsa stuff to pursue in life...gonna enjoy it all out..after school on the way to ego's house met up with her at the busstop...missed her mann..so we talked while waitin fer bus..said she gonna go int to pay her bills..at ego's house tot of askin her go makan but was too late..she alreadi at home..arse...blew it...then we proceeded to mac..makan then go play soccer at the same ol' place...lotsa people...18 to be precise...haha...after playin..saw her again..from tuition...she didnt tie her hair at she was DAMN jio...ARGHH!!!she made my heart flutter...just dunnoe whyy...called her immediately...hee...everytime when i see her i kept rememberin bout her...i tried forgettin abt her but it's too damn fuckin difficult..every time i see er..everytime it made me think abt our past...sweet memories..dunnoe why she had to let go..twice...she's one hella difficult babe to handle cause she is very reluctant to open up..that's the main reason whyy we couldnt make things work...but im still very certain that we could make things work out if we were closer..and the path is not closed yet...cause she's the one i think..i dunnoe...sometimes i think that im a fuckin fickle minded guyy...but im not to sure abt that..cause when i love someone i really love her...and i wont let go of her no matter wat happens..thats the case between me and her..its been abt 3 months since we broke up and till now i still am very hopeful that we will get together again..maybe not now cause she kinda stressed up with her exams..i dunnoe...just hope we DO get back together cause i wanna spent my life with her...i really wanna...honest...hope ya readin this..byee!mmuakkx