airport

once i reached home, there i stood right in front of my house gate. when i pressed the button to open the gate, it just stabbed me. the voidness already came in. before this i was okay. but once i reached home then i felt the voidness that she has left. didnt know how i was going to feel before today. was wondering what i would feel. and i didnt know that THIS is what im gonna feel. empty.

i didnt feel this before.but somehow i feel it now and to think that im not really bothered by whats going on between us now but maybe after today i might. theres a huge possibility.

"she's luckly to have all of you"


if he told me that instead of alfrey i wouldve hugged him. it was so warm the way he made us look.

but in truth she deserves more. she deserves to be having fun while being here in spore.





will it be a long two weeks? i wonder.

nobody leads at all

rain has been the only obstacle from letting me doing my daily routines. fuck.

been raining relentlessly these few days and kinda creates that emotional feeling.yeah.cant help it. im pretty sure rain makes you feel like that as well.DONT DENY IT.haha.

well surely you will feel like it if you listen to dashboard confessional songs. man oh man.. sigh.haha.

things been going on well. mom's birthday coming soon and so is my birthday.woo..
hahaha.this february. on the 14th will be jenny's birthday. 17th will by my brother's birthday. on the 23rd will be alfrey's birthday and last but not least on the 25th!!! WILL BE MINE.rah.. it feels damn fast. one year has just passed me by. but at least i think ive been a good child and done something that benefits me which is going to SAE..hurhur. it almost felt like yesterday when i celebrated my birthday at fort canning where i was being ambushed by my buddies.haha.really. its as if the bruises are still fresh on my skin. hmm. maybe i just got a very good memory thats all.hahaha.

finally im seeing somebody. heh.


hahaha. but never have i imagined myself seeing a girl such as her. first and foremost she's not local and her english is kinda atrocious.hahaha. but really ah. but she's an awfully nice girl that what's important most. was really glad my blood could accept her because if they couldnt im pretty sure the society will condemn her. sigh. thats called discrimination. yes. it still exists in this modern world. sad right but we cant do anything about it. well there's one thing that enlightened me and it was what tino said to me. a person is a person irregardless of the person's profession. if only everyone had the same mentality as him.

but im never gonna run away from the truth. where she works and where she's from. cause a person is a person irregardless of their backgrounds.

silence killed me?

hey, its been uber long since i last posted here.well all thanks to my laptop.its gone now.but i have a wonderful desktop now!!wee.heh.ahhhh.been really tiring these few days.not been having enough of sleep and my mind's kinda fucked up right now.shall i say confused.ohwells not really in the greatest of moods to post long today.

my latest piece.not really complete.taking my time thats all

"What you mean to me"

this silence is always pinning
but you always seemed to let me free
anuish of the way you seem to have you're way.
tarnished by all of my friends
but i carried on nonetheless

take a deep breath
this song's meant for you and i
wait, the air is dead
wind isn't right
why am i in this charade?

always seems that you've been gone
it doesn't matter if im wrong.
when will we ever lay together
looking up high
touching the sky
where are you
i need you
what you mean to me
you're never here