Living in your letters

I'm always assuming the worst,

but you're going on nonetheless

and there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.

Letters from further away

keep pulling me close to home.

And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.

And I know that you hope for

longer good-byes

embracing for forever

and falling in your eyes.

(In your eyes, your eyes)

Pouring over photographs.

I'm living in your letters.

Breathe deeply from this envelope

it smells like you and I can't be

without that scent. It's filling me

with all you mean to me.

(To me)

Continually failing these trials

but you stand by me nonetheless

and you won't let me sink

though I'm beggin you, I'm begging you

Phone calls from further away

and messages on my machine,

but I don't ever tell you this distance

seems terrible.

There is no need to test my heart,

with useless space.

These roads go on forever,

there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart

So I'll hit the pavement

it's gotta be better than waiting

and pushing you far away

cause I'm scared.

So I'll take my chances

and head on my way up there.

'Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.

i really feel it everytime when i listen to this song.it really has beautiful lyrics.

living in your letters

been listening and watching dashboard confessional live performances.ahhh..maan.i envy ender.how the hell does he write that kind of songs.

bah.

anyhoo..the song ive written previously is still being rewritten.need more substance.

sometimes i wonder where will fate take me.or is fate too late to take me anywhere.sometimes i wonder whatever is happening right now,is it all because of fate or just pure coincidence.come on fate.show me something before its too late.

i want to tell you something.something that ive always been afraid.hope you'd listen one day.cause the emotions ive been bottling up in this tiny red bottle is begging to be opened.i believe in fate and i know you do.if thats the case then all i need to do is wait.

my heart is small there's only room for one.i cant let you leave me for my heart wont be whole.

dance with me

ahh..long time never blog. but dont be mistaken.my lappie is still down..yeah like forever right..fucking hell.

shit.test in two weeks time.buuut i feel confident about it.yeahh(:

everythings been fine with me and things.being down is just part of it.but i was just down thats all.but now im up! recently finished a song and this is it.

the song's entitled long awaited.


its breaking to pieces
the night is wasted
i wouldnt want to see those tears
i got the shivers when i come out to meet her
seeing that smile of hers
this feeling is not a lie because
its blind to her mistakes
i stand here and find that her smile
scares the shadows away
dance with me only this once to chase the stars at the lake

i look to you from this stairway
and i see a coldstream of
light that should only be
springing for the heavens.
why does it seem that every road
likes to wind up fast on me
she's all i want she's everything
she's all that i never had.

emptiness

you know why im empty?

cause my beloved laptop just died on me...ahhhhhhh.everything's in there.. everything! my assignment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

can i ever be any lower then how im feeling now.can i get any emptier?

you're calling too late

best deceptions.oh what a wonderful song that is.always makes me want to cry when hearing that song.

"dont you see dont you seee that the charade is over.And all the best deceptions and the clever cover stories awards go to you! So kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let you"

wonderful lyrics.if only i was like him.

ahh.been a slow day today due to overwhelming workload.stayed overnight at school last night and gonna stay again tonight.wish me luck.

slowslowslow.kinda cranky now cause im stuck here all alone.bah.need to go to hafiz's house for mok's birthday buuuuut no one wants to go with me.cheers.ive got no where to go with anyone.need to go hmv buuut no one wants to tag along.cheers.

how wonderful aye?

haha.i need foood.

this house always seems so empty.i need to go out and catch some fresh air.but it seems emptier out there.emptier then its suppose to be.so where do i go now?schoool i guess.thats where i feel less empty.workworkwork.

everyone seems to have their own things to do or rather have someone else to do stuff with.you know like having meals,movies,shopping etc.

I want thaat tooooo.kamal's busy with work.hafiz's away.the rest don't needless to say.to think of it,ive been doing all thaat alone for quite some time now.hmm.haha.doesnt feel thaat bad.not until today that is.been havin lunch,dinner,supper ,shopping and whatever not all by myself.but other than that everythings been perfectly fine.how things are going,buuut not my social circle.i use to be sooo gooood at this.friends in general have never been a problem.i use to have abundant of them.dont get me wrong.abundant doesnt mean useless.but now.looking around.there seems noone around me no more.and i dont really like that.azleen been missing together with nas.god knows what they're doing now.the tp people i dont blame them.it wont be a problem tho if i have a close friend right now.someone whom usually have time to spend with me.so it would preferably a female(: i dont know.i just enjoy my time abit more with girls then guys.but it never is a dull moment having a dayout with the guys.but girls?thats a bonus.haha.yeah back to the topic.unlike kamal whose a close friend of mine,he's been really busy with workworkwork.not that i blame him but likee not fair!hahaha.i dont know what to say for that la.hhaa.

you know what my conclusion is i need to eat.haha.

have yet to eat anything till now.

can someone just come up to me and give me a good hug?i seriously neeed one.