supermassive blackhole

school's been perfectly fine.loving it at the moment.

yeah!got four free tickets to watch click tomorrow.weeee.

shit.just now my fingers were itching to post entry now mcm da malas gitu.anyhows.

sometimes i look back why was i such a fuck to be caught up in a situation.i had the liberty to choose all theime.why did i became such a doofus to put my self in a mess.what you never had you never lost.whats not worth having is not worth missing.ive always been telling me that.not that i force myself to but its true.WHATS NOT WORTH HAVING IS NOT WORTH MISSING.crying can never change anything.and fuck all the tears ive shed for you.how i wish those tears were acid so it'll burn you when you touch it.how i wish my fingers were thorns so you'd get pricked when you held my hand.its all so contradicting and ironic now.but all so clear and sensible.

now there's no more hellos and not even goodbyes.how fucked up can that be huh?i guess im not worth saying bye to.when last time there were more then hellos and no goodbyes.only seeyoulater.there were hugs not repelling of energy.there were alot of kissing not spites.

sometimes i wonder if suddenly she had amnesia or something.cause its as if i dont exist anymore.i should've listen to her bestie.she was right all the way.but i chose to be stubborn.there.see.i CHOSE.kannina fuck.why did i chose to choose whatever i chose.

well past is history.and so are we.wait.i just typed that so it would ryhme.haha.past is history so is she.ahh.make sense.haha.no hatred created just an abudance of hatred.goodbye girl.you lost in this

my ass is hairy

FINALLY STARTED SCHOOL.

yay

first day was dull cause everyone was so damn fucking quiet.well i still find them quiet tho but at least some of them are talking now.haha.and there's this fucking weirdo in my class.goddamn.wanna know more please approach me.haha.cause if type it down hear firstly dangerous and seconldy tiring.ahahahah.

school's been really fun.well i've never been enthusiastic about school.err.well i did before.but not because of what im learning on but because of the girls.haha.well this time its what im studying.yeah.gerek.protools and stuff.nice nice nice.

so far made a few friends here and there.and i just realised that im the youngest there.goddammit.hahaha.

today went to catch a movie.with yas.haha.mangkok ah she.we went to watch lakehouse.FANTASTIC MOVIE.i rate it as good as butterfly effect(which is my favourite movie).this is the first time i really liked a love movie but thats because its no typical love story.its very complexed.go and catch it!no regrets bebeh.

should i cut my hair?pimples growing in the forehead.oh god forbid.

took 31 from tamp int.was hoping u'd get on the bus on the next stop like we always use too after work.but all i saw was an auntie hopping in.my heart sank.

doors closed shut

maybe?

you dont seem to talk anymore.

maybe you are selfish but i choose to dismiss that.



watched nacho libre!!haha.jack black always the brains behind stupid movies.
was supposed to join azleen yas and nas see pirates blah blah cause az and nas got two complimentary tickets.but to my ass delight they were sold out.asswipe.

so me and yas decided to watch another show.NACHO LIBRE.haha.tak regret tgk.sallie tagged along.oh by the way sallie is a malay girl.nama nak step slang je.padahal melayu.haha.
so it was a nice movie after a long time coming.I WANT TO WATCH PIRATES BLAH BLAH LAHH.who want to join????????

my treat.nehh.changed my mind.


wonder how is she now.got a new job maybe?ahhfarkk.the heck with it.why bother about other people when i myself i dont really bother about much.hmm.lets stick a finger in my ass.

NOW FART.ahhhhh.

ahh lame.hoogbad go;abnofbga f

hoog.haha.hmm.

i wanna write a new song.BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTT.my amp is with jihad.oi.aku nak balik laa amp aku.tolong eh.aku potong kepala kau buat sop bontot baru tau.

ehh.kepala laa bukan bontot.

NEED MY AMP NEED MY AMP NEED MY AMP.LELA TELL JIHAD CAN.URGENT.I NEED TO PEE.

currently chatting with why eh ass am and.GOD knows what the heck does she mean by that.all i can understand is ass.ass is pantat.pantat is buttocks.PUZZLE ALMOST DONEEHOOOHAAAA.hmm feel like piercing my nipples.haha.

school starting next week.weee.monday monday monday no more bluess

gonna missyou

it turns out the person who wanted to adopted the kittens wanted only one of em and i had to declined their proposal cause i did not want them to be separated from each other.so eventually i was stuck with them two

early in the morning dad was mad at me for bringing in the kittens.he gave me an ultimatum of giving them away by saturday or he will throw them all out.i was disgusted by his reaction.

so i was really mindfucked having thoughts of them being with me for the night.i will never forgive myself for the next thing i decided to do.i told kamal well since we can't keep em,we leave them outside the temple depan rumah kita ah.

i tugged myself out of the house.i didnt know what got me to do such evil sinful thing.everything felt numb in my head.it was all leave them outside and everything would be fine.all the way when i reach the temple i came back to my senses.i told kamal to do it cause i can't.immediately i shed a tear.as i left i saw them dazed in the dark and i cried.i felt like slapping myself.i went back in and still couldnt stop crying.i went back out.i was across the road and i saw naya,she was lost.she saw me and wanted to run towards me but was halted by a passing car.i cried even harder.she recognizes me.why am i such a fuck.i came back up and kamal told me he too had no heart to leave them outside.he called his dad and thankfully his dad let him bring in the kittens.my heart lit up.i cant show kamal how much i appreciated his deed.for if we would have eventually just leave the cats there i'll never get over it.so now the cats are with kamal.someone i trust.i know he will take good care of my adopted babies.

one thing i learned from this then self indulgence and selfishness can actually make you do things you would never imagine such as what i did.ill never ever forgive myself for that horrid and rash act.

im already missing their timid meows and scratchy paws snuggling into every corner of my body.the slipping of their paws when they walk and how they snuggle ontop of each other qhwn they sleep.jara,naya i'll always missyou.and hopefully ill still get to see you.for such small kittens,you carry alot of weight around especially the responsibilty that holds to take care of you.loveyou both

a lack of colour

caught a movie finally.watched superman returns.i always loved superman movies.

ive missed her latety.busy with work.her i mean.im just rotting at home till school starts.really cant wait for it to start.2 weeks!wee.

when can i see you again?

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TODAY IS MONDAY

see-saw

yup.thats how my fever is like.one moment its down,the next thing you know it shoots up again.

very irritating.cause i might be outside when the fever happens to turn up again and just spoil my day.

it has succesfully gone up and down 3 times today.currently now its up.ahh fuck.headache.feel soo weak when havin fever.can you massage my back please?
im just tired right now.cant wait for school to start.its like 3 weeks more.wee.
i need panadol.arghh