fuccckkkk....tired like fuckk mann...short of sleep..tired from playing soccer..guess what..with my badly sprained ankle, i still played soccer just now..haha...but cautiously..haha..veeryy...supposed to go to queensway today with hafiz and farhan but both couldnt make it,fuckk...so going tomor laa..have to..
yesterday had the teachers day rehearsal..woahh..damn scary..and to think that the hall was only filled with about 20 people..cb..on e actual day gona have hundreds of people..oh no!!haha..scaryy sial...the first run of rehearsal i was freakin nervous that i mumbled the first few lines but after that i had a hang of it and just sang normally..but fuck!!wednesday!!SCARRYY!!GODDAMMIT!!erghh..
then on th 2nd going to pengerang with the alumni members to play soccer..gonna be one hell of a night man..cant wait for it..


woot!!study break started and 2 1 week away from 2 months of holiday!!!!yeahhh!!woooot!!can't waitt..yeahh...lalala..sotong dont have holiday yet..she's going to be sooo jealous!haha..

woot..what a week it has been..fucking hell..its not been a good week for me at all..cause all the fucking projects due..kana sai..stress siaa...the past 3 days slept at 5 in e morning..asshole siaa school..but nvmm..i'm left with one project now and its all over!!yay..haha..fucking hell..grr..

projects projects projects projects projects

played soccer for ahwile just now and i landed flat on the side of my ankle..ahhh..damn pain sial..now its like swollen..my left ankle somemore..fuck sia..my left feet still swollen now ankle..cb..

tmr we got rehearsal!ahhhh...scaryy..haha..but at least my childhood dream will finally turn reality..woohoo..goddammit.

cant wait for semestral break..gerekk..haha

long time never talk to her on e fon mann..all bcause of the stupid school work laa..fuckk..hope to hear from her sooN!!kan sotong?haha..

hmm..so many things to be said with so little time...err..

cliche eh?haha

actually got not many things to be said laa..

my foot is killing me..i think its cracked or what..its been since last friday when i hurt my foot..i kicked the fence metal bar at full speed while playing soccer.it turned blue black and was swollen..the next day i still played soccer with the injured foot.but after a few days it was okie..but then fuck just now play soccer bare foot and the foot pain again...arghh..cb..same spot...left foot..grr..why cant be right..so it wont hurt as much..

but anyways..who cares about my foot right?

need to do vis lit assignment on advertisement..hmm..

was really sick this few days..had body aches blocked nose..fucked up..but still i was cheery..haha..good ehh...

sometimes if someone makes a sacrifice for you especially if its your gerl,it doesnt mean she's gonna be yours forever..so always treasure those that u have right now.even if u are with her for 10 years..she can go anytime she wants..no matter what the circumstance is.but you can never compare of how things were last time between your girl/boy last time and now because things will always change.the feeling when u jus get attached with someone and someone you have been together is different in terms of the anxiety to meet her and etc.but keep in mind that the feelings for that person WILL never change if that person still loves her/him la..cause love is never about expression and actions..its a natural process..i dont know if i make sense now but that is what i feel..but not exactly laa cause i dont know how to put it in words..sometimes if u have been attached to a person for too long,u kinda treat each other as best friends.but isnt that better than not havin any?best friends are hard to find.so why throw it all away


to the person im referring to now,you can say he now treats you differently from last time,and he takes u for granted but did u ask him whether his feelings for you has changed since the first time both of u met?i think he sometimes take u for granted sub-consciously.that is not as bad as he go out with another person right?i dont want you to make a decision now and stood firmly on it only to regret it after on.

it makes me sad to hear all these commotion between u guys.why the need to create all this when in the first place everything was peaceful.

been havin this mysterious bug since late last week.and its A PAIN IN THE ASS..goddammit..wake up with a fucking sore throat..its so damn sore that i cant even bare to swallow my saliva..fuck..

then frequent headaches,laziness..arhhh..fucking hell..

today woke up late..haha...school started at 9 but woke up at 836..i dreamt that i had to wake up and so i woke up to check what time was it and i freaked out cause i was really2 late..reached school around 945..had presentation later on for isso..fucckkk..which meanss....i had to wear formal..ass..well..actually wanted to wear blazer but my dads one so small uhh..shit..so wore topman formal wear which is a long sleeved shirt with slacks..and brown shoes..haha.hot sia wear like that..if everyday wear like that i thing i can lose a whole lot of weight..cool..haha..

the presentation went as planned..wait..we didnt planned anything!haha..we just trusted on our knowledge of our company and talked crap.haha..yea..and i did talk alot of crap..until i played a scenario..haha..k.was cool..nigel look very wierd without his cap tshirt and berms..haha..his hair..is like omg..haha..

after school chilled with farhan kamal and hafiz..did stupid stuff as usual.but was hilarious laa..haha..sadly had no energy to move..haha.so basically i was lying down and laughed..haha..

exams are drawing near and i know shit..fucking hell sia..cannot take it mann...haha..

my leg is full of bruises..left foot is bruised after i accidentally kicked the metal bar of a fence..then my right ankle is strained.right shin swollen..all because of soccer..haha..k nvm..soccer is my life..

next friday auditions..26 aug..scary..haha..but fuck em all..we gonna prove em they did a mistake not to choose us last year to perform..need to rethink of verse 2..wanna put more meaning in em..arghh..lotsa stuff to do with so little time..

miss you..lala...wanna go out again with you laa...can can can?

haha..speaking of her..it rings a bell in my head..just now in the bus i started to think about love..they say everysingle person is fated to be with another person..you get what i mean right.it means for example im fated to be with *ahem* anna kournikova which means i will live my life with her..so if this is true then why is there people who are choosy of whom thier husband/wife will be..doesnt make sense right?its like u have bought a lespaul guitar oreadi but u want ur guitar to be brown but the one u bought is green..something like that

what im trying to say that if u are fated to be with this person sooner or later so why bother being so paticular whom your husband/wife will be..right?you ARE already fated to be with this person..there's nothing you ccan do about it.if you are in love all the bad things of him/her will be neglected cause they say love makes you blind..

oh yea..and it brings me to an issue..haha..waa..linking mann all my topics..haha..remembered one of my friends said what goes around comes around and what comes up must come down..well..i think it is beginning to turn to reality..its not that im being evil or what but that person deserved what him/her recieved after it happenned to me exactly the same way last time by the same person..its not that i do it on purpose but the thought of what happenned last time pushed me to make it more hurtful..so i guess now u know how it feels to be in my shoe..u push me down and left me lying on e floor..you never pick me up..so this is exactly how i felt last time..good riddance

fuckk..i'm damn tired...two straight days play soccer...had long nights..haii..

well fuck it

its been one hell of a boring week.really.Nothin happenned.oh wait.one thing did happenned.haha..highlight of the week.it was watchin the fireworks at esplanade there..hmm.ok la..the fireworks were different from last year.but it was sooo short.felt sorry for her cause she had to stand sooo lonnngg...but i had a great time thanks to her..hurhur..on that nite a lot of bangla sia..haha..all holdin hands..fuckk..gayy.haha..

monday gonna have a formal presentation..cb.dunno what to wear.arghh..school is so fuckin stress.who said poly wasnt stress?shitty

submitted our songs to be vetted by the organiser of the teachers day concert.hokai.quite excited.we gonna have to go thru auditions..fuck.later flop again.but this time round i think we gonna make it.yea..fuck u.haha




haii..k im physically and mentally drained..bye

Falling

heyyy.

fuck

i want to change my skin but too fucking lazy to do that.

Hmm.nvm.

Sooo..its the fresh start to the weekend.My parents will be away for one week!haha..yea..

but actually no different la

cause i always too busy with school.

so yea.ehh..why the fuck i type abit then i enter.haha..well..haha..i also dont know.this week have been soooo borinnggg..cause tons and tons and tons and tons of projects as well as test.fuckkk..tiring sia.until i was sick.thank you sotong!haha.she was the onlyy person who bothered to ask me how i was feeling..she cares!haha..sore throat is a pain in the ass..haha
but now im better

oh yea..the winner of school of rocks sucks laa..they plain ordinary..and one newspaper article on school of rock stated am interview which said he saw no rock music!..haha..how ironic.like school of rock but no rock music..but to be said..it is rightfully true..yea..fucking hell sia..nvm..next year we will show them the true beauty of rock..haaa..now we are already starting to prepare ourselves..yeaa..haha..hope it works this time round..

wanna talk to her.but she's busy..shit..

hmm..

i guess that's about all
bye
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part two


k.decided to post cause im supa dupa bored right now..
now a bit emo..EUGENE.DONT SAY IM GAY..times like these are very rare.this goes to you to sotong.haha.but yea..now only la emo.cause when im bored like i've said before i'll think of stuff.and now im thinking of *_______*.She makes me flip upside down just by thinking of her.Sometimes i don't know why i put myself into this kind of situation.its very unfavourable to me..Eugene told me that i should tell her that i like her a.s.a.p. because he said girls like these will tend to think that i'm playing ard only.so i gotta say to her quickly!!!BUT HOW?WHEN?WHERE? these are all the bonus questions.

fuck

been intending to tell her weeks ago but the words just doesn't wanna come out..The first time i planned to tell her was when we went out to the beach.ok..i think its pretty obvious right now who the girl is..haha.well nvm.just makes it less complicated la..back to where we were;Just didn't have the guts to say uh that time.then when talking on the fon on e same nite wanted to say.then again..my balls shrank..goddam u balls.haha..so i dont know hw e fuck am i suppose to let her know..i dont want to tell her thru sms cause it doesn't sound sincere la.so i think i should be telling her face to face..wooott..hope my balls wont shrink this time..haha..

i just dont want her to get the wrong idea of everything la..cause i really do like her alot and to see her sad is just even sadder.i dont wanna hurt her not after everything..its been the best thing that has happenned to me since i last broke up.really brought back memories..both happpy and painful..but mostly she brings happy memories.i just want her to know that she's been the kindest,caringest person to me all month long..

bye..adios..

where were you before?

hey ho!hur hur..fuck..i want to change my blog skin but i damn lazy laa..havin neck ache again..goddammit...i need a fucking new neck.ass.Really.My neck always aching one..cheebye.well heck.

Hmm today's Monday.A brand new week with a whole lot of opportunities knocking on my door.haha..what crap.howells.Tried to write a song just now.Figured out the chords but my freaking neck forbid me from writing the lyrics..cannot tahan oreadi.Need to lie down..fucking hell.argh..why am i talking about my neck agaiN??..

School was okay today..yea..nothin much happen 'cept for nigel and me being the clowns in iiso class..haha..funny sia..then got an extra student joining for our tutorial and i jokingly said that she must sit beside me.and guess what..she did!haha..but..dowan la.she smokes.haha..hate girls dat smoke..so unfaminine(sp?)haha..dont know how to spell..welll aniway.so all the class disturb me la..but nvm.i put up a straight face and ignore them..haha..i guess i did..haha..

After school actually wanted to ask her out,but she's not feeling well la,so cannot la.Dont want to trouble her..haa..see i so good..nyehehe..So I ended going to parkway with ed then met up with hafiz(not the smelly one),Farhan(the hairy one),Lennard(the fucker)..and zul(botak)..haha..mcm2 nickname.haha..if me,my nickname will surely be the greatest or handsome...hahaha..so back to just now..we went to play pool and then chilled at macafe..for awhile je..then we head home.k hear is the highlight of the day..listen close.Instead of taking bus home,you know what i did?i walked home!haha..all the way from parkway to my house.haha..with hafiz.nothin to do la so exercise a bit la.haha..but i feel a bit stupid because there's tons of bus for me to choose from but i chose to walk.haha..nvm..once in awhile lets be different.

haii...now im bored..when im bored it makes me think..fuck..haha..nvm..

really feel like writing song sia..but my stupid fuckin neck cheebye.

she asked me whom i was referring to in my blog..shouldnt say which one cause it will be pretty obvious.I want say this to you but im just not up to it.Im a nervous wreck.You are growing in me..not literally la..but you know.im getting more fond of you day by day..I GOT ANOTHER CONFESSION TO MAKE.haha..but im just afraid that what im going to say to you one fine day will affect our relationship now..haha..fuckk..dont want to sound so emo.but its just the way how the cookie crumbles.haha..should've held her hand when she held mine.should've have hugged her when she said she was cold.now i live to regret all of this.Im no player.trust me.I now how it feels to be played with emotionally from my own experience.So believe me when i say that i like you..Maybe love is too strong to be used now..haha..

k...now i really really reallyx100 feel like writing a song.got some inspiration..k..lemme give it a shot.chiao.
rest well take care.