feeling suicidal..got a real gun in my hand...really..hur hur...dunnoe laa..since yesterday feelin a wee bit depressed..fuck mann...but here are some nice photos i took...

that's teckie!

Nigel..fucking ass oh no!! im being crushed by a tank...haha

The Bullets that got me!

fuck..suddenly in depressed mood mann..shitty sia...


dunnoe laa..think because of a chat i was havin with my good friend.after that chat mood changed.especially after thinking about what happened with my last ex..


fuckk sia...dunnoe wat happened between us..i told my friend tat for now it will take me a looongg time to get a gf but my previous one,i knew her for at least 2 fucking years!!and we bere fucking bestfriends..and it didnt fucking work..


dunnoe wat fucking thing happened back then..arghh...sad u noe..really thot she's the one..maybe i shall give up finding the one for now or is it im trying too hard to find the one..


still remember the time when i was so pissed with her and sad at the same time..broke down in front of her mann..for half and hour..haizz...memories..painful memories..yesterday's feelings..it sucks..


all my relationship are short lifted...where did i go wrong??or where did we go wrong..ass..maybe im too nice.thats wat huda said..is tat true?being too nice can turn against u some time...but thats me..i'm nice..i hate being angry..i dont like to quarrel.I will always give in..thats me.. i cant help it mann..is this why people are takin advantage of me?my gfs i mean..they use my soft side to hit me where it hurts most..


watchin couples everynow and then jus bleeds my heart..empty it,filled with sorrow..talk to me or i'll fade in the distance..thats part of my song..


i jus realize it takes me only a minute to really like someone but it takes me a lifetime to forget one..its really true..sometimes it is fuckin irritating cause in the end im the one wounded..if i hav the looks and the hot bod this wont be an issue...but no!i got no fucking body..in fact i hav a belly..i dun hav the smelting looks and people take advantage of my character..where the fuck should i stand in this world..maybe jus lie on my bed and sleep..


i think i learnt alot in my last relationship but i learnt the hard wayy..and at times im afraid to get into a relationship again..cause wat was broken back then aint mended yet and its unbearable if it happens again.


sometimes i sound desperate,i dunno why..but i jus sound like it.

sometimes i seem and feel desperate

bye

"Falling"
by Eugene

verse 1
Today is not a lie
The shadows are a lullaby
we sit here in this dull sunshine
remembering our best pastimes
Do you ever feel empty
Like there;s nothing there tomorrow
You see the smiles of little children
I'm fading to oblivion

1st chorus
The light falls down all behind me
All of yesterday's feelings
I don't know but i've been told
that there's a tomorrow

verse2
this hindsight assumes
the curse of memory
is feeding our emotions
a stagnant revolution

2nd chorus
And if i carry on running
down this avenue of churning
the lies of happines is cold
but there's a tomorrow

Bridge
Everytime,If i fall down,
you pick me up and i hold on to you
what's the worst thing i can say?
I'm falling
Falling in your arms
Falling in your arms




"Raging end"
by Haikal

Can't you see the sky falling?
People running for their lives
Do you hear the lightning striking?
Killing innocents in random
Its sad to see the Earth crumbling down
Can't you hear the Earth shaking?
spewing hot lava from its craters
It is all coming to an end

But i hope god will spare me
as i sit here by the cliffs
watching the raging tsunami storming nearer
swallowing everything in its path


Maybe its too late for me to run
Cause Earth is coming to its raging end
I can't escape the powers of god
The destruction he can cause
Its is coming to its raging end



ok...the last song haven finish laa...brain juice empty ledi..haha..will update on it asap..byee

wooot!!hey ho!



went to watch movie!!!!


a lot like love!!


with natasha!!!


haha!!!


shiok laa the movie...so lovey dovey and comical too...haha


had fun goin out with naaaa todayy...hhaha..was our first time out u noe?hhaha


so had butterflies in my stomach at first budden later on ok liao...


haha

good..


hate it when got butterflies in my stomach..


haha..well...we grabbed some food after movie and jus stroll at suntec then at esplanade..
actually wanted to sit down for awhile but scared later it will be too late for her laa..dammit..


weell nvm...all's not lost..haha..after that we went back..yeaa..now my leg tired after all the walking...haha....zzz..basically thats all for today!

hellooo...fucckkk...NMM STILL HAVEN FINISH SIA!AND ITS DUE ON MONDAY!OH NO!HOW?!HELP!..
howells..haha...lets take a break from school nonsense shit..yeaa...wise choice..hmm...where shall i begin..oh yea...first things first..im dead tired..from playing soccer..argh..kaki mcm nak tecabot..shitty ass...

hmm...alumni thingy not goin too well so next meetin i think they gonna get fucked by me..haa!!great being the president u noe!haha..hehe..whoops..hope they dont read this..haha..but seriously laa..its not goin on pretty well..but nvm..i shall not disappoint you guys..we gonna have a get together pretty soon and i wan u guys to come!!haha...pleeassee...haha..


fuck...nonsensical alumni..haha...well..been goin online very frequently and checkin my friendster ac..yea..and one day...someone add me!haha...k la..alot people add me but this one quite surprising..first of all we dont go same poly and during sec school we were like strangers..to think of it we knew each other since pri 1...haha..had a major crush on her during pri school so it kinda brings back the memories u noe..haha.aww..haha..fuck head..ahah...so now from distant friends,we are kinda close now..yay..hehhe..so happy laa..haha..hope we stay on like this for a lloonnnngg time..yea..lets hope....*hoping really hard*...hahah...fun girl to chat with laa...i loike her attitude man..and her interest in music!!yea.totally..she's not those typical gerls mann..yeaa.right on..she's different..dats wat i like..ahem ahem..lain mcm je ni..no laa..just happy i get to be close with one of my longest serving friend..haha...



ok tats all laa...tired laa..been typing essays for ages and my fingers i think got abs man..haha..chiao!

Iris

And I’d give up forever to touch you

’cause I know that you feel me somehow

You’re the closest to heaven

that i’ll

Ever be

And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

’cause sooner or later it’s over

I just don’t want to miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me

’cause I don’t think that they’d

Understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t

ComingOr the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive

And I don’t want the world to see me

’cause I don’t think that they’d

Understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me

’cause I don’t think that they’d

Understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me

’cause I don’t think that they’d

Understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

my favourite song right now..nice lyrics

hey ho!!hahah..longtime never see me ehh...busy with school and shit laa..haiz....stress sia school..wait..dun get me wrong...its not because of exams or assignments..its because too many girls laa..hahah...kidding...bombardment of assignments sia..knn...cb sia...all thro at us..cb...well...nvm...i chill..hehe..trying my best..


did i mentioned in my previous tat i got a lappie???haha..lazy wanna check laa...well if no i got a lappie..yay..err..hahah...yeap..now can go online 24/7..muahaha..so u will see me more often..sorry laa if i irritating..haha..


shitty titty ass..hahah...hmm...was somemore ehh..oh yea..my class shiok laa the people..not all laa..oops..hehe..kidding..there's nigel..my new bro...slacker sia he..jus like me...later u guys will be able to see all the photos i have aiite..hehe...then there's teckhong aka mr bean!!haha..yeaa..wanna noe why??haha...his meal will be ala carte beans with brown rice...eww..how disgusting u can get..hehe...if it was me dun expect me to eat em..fuck..not my kinda of diet...but its healthy laa..hahha...he's one cool dude...his fashion i mean..haha..wear clothings all damn original one..haha...no one wear like him..confrimhaha...oso slacker..if u ever see us in class u can easily spot us..we will be rigghhhhttt at the back..hahah...yea..but we do our stuff..haha..ya rite..


listening to goo goo dolls iris now..shiok sia the songs..feeling..yeaa...gives me inspiration....



haiz...deprived of girls now..somebody save me!!hahah..i lazy laa wanna upload photo..some other time laa..chiao

hey wassup....oi u guys is it wrong to oogle at girls..and no im not desperate...which guy whos is in right fuckin mind and is straight dont oogle at girls...im not committing a crime rite?i dun touch em or give tt sick look...i jus look enjoy and its over..tats it...so u muthafuckin mofos hu think i m despo go fuck your own balls cause im a guy and i like to look at girls and proud of it...im single so why shouldnt i oogle at girls..fuck..if i cant id rather have a gf mann...fucken hell...well..school's been great

jus bought a laptop and it cost a bomb...so no new hp for me...fuck..hahha.nvm..i can contact my friends via email!!hahah..fuckk...well...tats all for now...time for me to sleep while listening to foo fighters best of you...waa nice...haha..oh ya..six songs near completion...wooo..hhaha...band name the poetic tragedy...watch out we're comin....hahha..ermm..sounds gay...fuck...cheebye..bye2

heyheyhey!!!!


poly life commenced and its welll funnn....in a way...but quite stupid laa the timetable...imagine on tuesday only 4 hours of school but the timetable put it in a way that it drags from 9 to 4....like fuck rite...well nvm...hmm....so far so good la school...supaahh lots of jiobu...wooo...heaven la k...especially design school...waa....all hot gerls down there....yeaaa....bout my class well now we are closer and they are actually fun laa...nigel teck hong are always with me in class...the 3 slackers...haha...fun guys...then the rest lazy wanna type laa...haha...

signed up for wake boarding and music vox....but think will be goin for music vox cause lazy laa wanna go for physical training....haiz...

finally met melissa jus now...she look different..haha...but only see her talk a few conversations and we parted...sad...when wanna go hav lunch or dinner??!!!!this goes the same to wz and mic!!..hmmph.....

haiya...no mood to type somemore laa...hmm..lemmme think....should i or shouldn't write somemore...ok no....byeee