fuck..suddenly in depressed mood mann..shitty sia...


dunnoe laa..think because of a chat i was havin with my good friend.after that chat mood changed.especially after thinking about what happened with my last ex..


fuckk sia...dunnoe wat happened between us..i told my friend tat for now it will take me a looongg time to get a gf but my previous one,i knew her for at least 2 fucking years!!and we bere fucking bestfriends..and it didnt fucking work..


dunnoe wat fucking thing happened back then..arghh...sad u noe..really thot she's the one..maybe i shall give up finding the one for now or is it im trying too hard to find the one..


still remember the time when i was so pissed with her and sad at the same time..broke down in front of her mann..for half and hour..haizz...memories..painful memories..yesterday's feelings..it sucks..


all my relationship are short lifted...where did i go wrong??or where did we go wrong..ass..maybe im too nice.thats wat huda said..is tat true?being too nice can turn against u some time...but thats me..i'm nice..i hate being angry..i dont like to quarrel.I will always give in..thats me.. i cant help it mann..is this why people are takin advantage of me?my gfs i mean..they use my soft side to hit me where it hurts most..


watchin couples everynow and then jus bleeds my heart..empty it,filled with sorrow..talk to me or i'll fade in the distance..thats part of my song..


i jus realize it takes me only a minute to really like someone but it takes me a lifetime to forget one..its really true..sometimes it is fuckin irritating cause in the end im the one wounded..if i hav the looks and the hot bod this wont be an issue...but no!i got no fucking body..in fact i hav a belly..i dun hav the smelting looks and people take advantage of my character..where the fuck should i stand in this world..maybe jus lie on my bed and sleep..


i think i learnt alot in my last relationship but i learnt the hard wayy..and at times im afraid to get into a relationship again..cause wat was broken back then aint mended yet and its unbearable if it happens again.


sometimes i sound desperate,i dunno why..but i jus sound like it.

sometimes i seem and feel desperate

bye