sahara

i dont know why but suddenly i got this urge to go travel and see the sahara.eversince i went to see the desert in dubai,i've fell in love with the beauty of desert.never in my life that i will picture myself being in a desert and i never expect the sands there to be sooo damn smooth.like milk you know.that smooth.its just so nice just to bask under the setting sun and enjoy nature.the natural landscape of earth.untouched.

sometimes i feel its such a shame most countries are expanding so vast and never spare a thought of the natural landscape that will be ploughed away.how i wish everthing of earth had remained untouched but we still to get to live the way we are now.

howells.im not god am i?

haha.

MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING!!yay.

and she tells me she got a lot of stuff lined up for me.such a sweet girl she.=)

mom asked me what i wanted for my birthday.i said nothin.damn!haha.wrong answer dude.i want a watch.heh.its been a long time since i got a watch of real value.all ive been getting for my birthdays were perfumes.haha.yeah.3 straight years.perfumes.but yea.i love perfumes.hee..

cant wait for my birthday!yay.i know its gonna be lotsa of fun cause ill be spending my time with her.wee.




ive realised that ive been spending a whole lot of time with her lately and at times it made me wonder.how things will be if one point of time i have to carry on life without her irregardless of why.will i be able to carry on?will i be able to look forward and not backward?

hope i will.dont wanna stumble and fall and not havin anyone to pick me up.NO!heh.howells.only time will tell and i hope time will take its own sweet time and let me enjoy the time i still have.

goobaahgoobeegooobuuu

choose rain over water

drowning

i'm totally immersed in this ocean
my legs are numb from every movement
i can feel the world spinning around
as i sit down listening to you breathing
all this while i've been wanting to stay
in this ocean im drowning in
but you took my hand and lift me up

but i dont know
for should i stay
just give me a sign
or make me blind
but i dont know
if what u did was right
cause ive been drowning
in misery

your touch is smooth like the sands of sahara
i pulled you in this ocean
an ocean for us to let our problems go away
watch the moon set
listen to me sing for you this song

but i dont know
for should i stay
just give me a sign
or make me blind
but i dont know
if what u did was right
cause ive been drowning
in misery.

there my latest piece.dont really know what it is actually talking about.hahah.howells.im tired

so long

its been so long since i last updated.Its because i havent been getting the right mood to type out stuff that has revolved around me.

and due to my mouth i have to write out a 4 page essay.damn.

k.so far life has been ok.pleasant but not fun.i've not been too happy what i have done so far.the thing is have yet to do anything and that bothers me.im heading nowhere with no guidance to stepping stones.i dont know where im heading cause im stagnant.like the still waters in the ponds

i have been falling sick lately and i have no frickkin idea why.had throat infection lately and it hurts so bad.really.had an injection on my ass.haha.scary.

didnt celebrate valentines this year.just like all the time.haha.

dont really get the idea of valentines.so yea.spent time with rusydi bob and apek instead and had loads of fun.first met up with apek at riaz and he took leave.haha.mean of me.haha.den bob and di came by to join us from school.we went in to a pet shop beside the riaz and they have the most fucking cutest cats in the whole world.there were these ragmuffins.omg!they are fucking cute sia.really.cost 900 bucks for a kitten!get me one will u guys.for my birthday.hurhur.can la.haha.

then afterwhich we proceeded to katong to play bowling.msged lela and asked her to join but she said she wanted to sleepp.boooo.
laughed my ass off while playing bowling.scored 110!woooeee..hahah.
i know la im not too pro in this forte.hehehe.but howells.after two rounds we proceeded to my place.sat down for awhile.bob took forty winks and then met razi and sara(oink)haha.
walked all the way to mas ayu..lela msged she say she joining us at 7 or 8 cause meeting mystery x.wonder why must say mystery x.howells.damn fuckking hell.hot like cum la sia.aha.stopped by at starbucks to enjoy the aircon.saw raihanah!woooeee.haha.she applying job there!yay.then can see her everyday.heh.hahaha.shh.

after an hour we made our way to mas ayu.was expecting the bhoys to come down but fucking shit they ditched us last minute.that got me really pissed guys.but im over it.it was supposed to be a big outing for us u know.and u guys happily went to town and left us alone.fucking shit.but nevermind.we carried on.had dinner there but it was delayed cause wanted to wait for her but she was late.very disappointed in you dear.talked lotsa crap with them.cried my balls off due to too much laughter.

and after an hour plus from the initial meeting time,she finally came down!and mystery x was subhan.okeh.hello mystery x.u got a new name i presume.how nice.haha.mystery x.u went out with him but not me!booo.i didnt want to make plans with you cause u told me you didnt want to go out cause u cancelled out with other people cause its valentines.

sat for awhile and we left.boo.

im happy with the people i have now.my family.my friends.

my friends have been there for me when i need em eventho they do disappoint me sometimes but they are only humans.so yea.i understand.

there's rusydi bob apek hannan kamal ali abu rahman faliq hafiz yazid hamzah whom i really enjoy thier company.always fun to hang out with them.they are my true friends.

then there's lela whom have taken care of me when i needed one.she's been my pillar of strength and i cherish that.she's been the sweetest person to me by far.a loongg shot.hands down.but i dont know how to show my appreciation in return.im stumped.

well i think this is long enough.hhaah.goodnight.until then

heyy.im back.haha.

yeap.

from dubai.

was a great trip.shiok ahh.

wanna know more come to me ahh.

lazy wanna talk about it here.haha.so much to tell.

haha.

spent alot down there.wee.bought lots of stuff.hee.

haii.

have not been able to get sleep the past twodays.

skin dry ah.

damn.

irritating seyy.

hurhur.

now got headache.damn

howells.

dunno what else to say ah.

oh ya.i guess i deserved it.

you know what im talking about