hello motherfuckers...arhh...its almost 12 and tomor i got paper in the morning,i haven study and looks like im screwed...

fuck

fuck

i jus cant sleep la fuck...don't know why arhh...shit..


been thinking about lotsa stuff lately..

and i mean ALOT


haii...sometimes thinkin of all these shit makes me fucking depressed sia...knn..dont like when i am depressed cause people wont like me when im one..


fuck..well..now kinda depressed tho..depressed about girls..

ahhh

keep telling my fucking self that now is not the time to think of girls..its time to fucking enjoy..u noe..like one night stand..hurhur..not that enjoy la..but i think im not those kind who likes to go out and enjoy with different girls everyday..fuck..when im interested in this girl..i will get stuck on her..fuckk..hate it when i like a girl..cause i'll somehow be like a pet u noe...arghh...

sometimes also when i like that person she dont even realise it because they think im jus being nice..ya la i am..but sometimes u can see wat..rite??well fuck em all...

hate it when im in these mode..arh..fuck fuck.fuck...i think im beginning to get hooked on this girl...goddammit...i dun wan to fall for her mann..cause i got a feelin it will ruin our friendship..really..fuck fuck fuck...wat should i do uhh?

she's really nice tho to me...been really fun gettin to noe her..but i really started off only wanting to know her more only..that is..no other motive..now oso no motive laa..but..day by day..the feeling grow..fuckkk...how to stop it arhh?i cant be hating her..nono...

well..we'll just have to see what happens..if i do fall for her..all i can do is go go go..and take a big fucking risk..what have i gotta lose niway?my balls?no..



life sucks..haha...hate it when people say tat..life couldnt be any beautiful than this..eventho im depressed i jus simply love life...best gift god ever gave me was the beauty of sight to see the beauty of life..yeaa....hurhur...so fuck u guys who say life sucks...u aint see nothin yet..cb..

think im gonna go look at the stars...remind me of her...hahah...well fuck it...i'll just gaze at em..