ahhh......sucky weekend once more....it will never be great weekend or ok weekend until i get something of my head...its been botherin me for days...dunnoe where i'm headin in my life...its been awhile since i met her,gosh...how badly i missed her...sometimes i think maybe we can never be like last time...well if we can't at least we can work on what we have now and hold on to it firmly rite?well it takes two to tango...if one doesn't wan to then things can never follow as planned...well maybe i'm damned on this earth...hu knows...

after thinkin real hard about what to do with the thing tt has been fuckin botherin me,i've decided to do something about it...jus like wat friend of mine told me to do..thanks eh...those words of yours really struck me in the head and made me wake up...its about time i set things straight and tell her wat i'm unhappy about and wat we can do...but i dunnoe wat to say...i'm afraid tat wat i might say may not be wat i meant...you noe wat i mean rite...

but i seriously think that i should change the way things go between us....i also think tat i'm being too soft and rather takin a step back too much....maybe tats why she dun seem to appreciate me tat much...this is wat i think...if im wrong than tats wonderful....

but it all falls down to the both of us...whether we're willing to compromise....like they say it takes two to tango....

now the thing is when should i talk to her about this...should i give her time to think or should i talk to her asap...both has it cons....if i give her time,she might drift further away...and if i talk to her asap,she may think that i'm jus paranoid and might get pissed at me again once more...i really duno wat the fuck i should do...wat the fuck is wrong with u...wat the fuck is wrong with me....wat the fuck is goin on...i've been kept in the fuckin dark way too fuckin long....

i'm still patient tho'...i will never do things to her tat shouldn't be done...so if u wanna avoid me..do as u please cause i will wait...wait until i die...