JUST FEELING FUCKED UP...seriously...i think there is a comspiracy against our band...fuckin hell...peace

FUCKING NERVOUS!!arghh..goddammit..its just tomor and if ...IF...we make thru its nxt tues...arghh!!FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

JACKASS!!hahahah..that's all i can say abt yesterday nite..err..late mornin actually...me nasir nick went out..i met nasir at 2 then nick came along at 3..hahah....we did stupid stuff..fuck xia...hahaha...jackass shit...but it was damn fuckin funn..yea...shuld do it again...went back at 6am..i didnt sleep..fuck.now damn sleepy...hahah....so chiao

Is it worth it can you even hear me

Standing with your spotlight on me

Not enough to feed the hungry

I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now

In this sea of lonely

The taste of ink is getting old

It's four o' clock in the fucking morning

Each day gets more and more like the last day

Still I can see it coming

While I'm standing in the river drowning

This could be my chance to break out

This could be my chance to say goodbye

At last it's finally over

Couldn't take this town much longer

Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be

Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands

And I'll savor every moment of this

So here I am alive at last

And I'll savor every moment of this

And won't you think I'm pretty

When I'm standing top the bright lit city

And I'll take your hand and pick you up

And keep you there to so you can see

As long as you're alive and careI promise I will take you there

And we'll drink and dance the night away

As long as you're alive

Here I amI promise I will take you there

FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!!my shoulder fuckin pain....played the fucking guitar just nw and sprained my shoulder...ARGH!!!luckily the audition's not tomorrow..if nt sure die xia...dammit...its next week!!argH!!!goddamn...and my throat hurst frm shoutin buried myself alive..fucking hell...well nvm...today was funn...had pe..hahah...shiok....hahha,...some stoopid shit happen then afta that it was slack all the way...chai lai aka the dog mr azahar aka hairyman dint come..woooo...slack mann...then came eng oral..haha...len was so fuckin nervous xia....cool..hahha...i was like chill...hahah...dint think at it too much..and in the end kinda sastisfied with wat i said during the conversation..hee..so chiao amigo

today was fun...first 2 periods was hell...had chemistry...followed by mt and another 2 periods of hell at poa...fuckk....then afta recess slack!!woooo...hahah..fuck yea...then had assembly...fuckk...as usual..hell again..it was fuckin boring....cheesebun...then had the career talk..went to meet up with ina coz she too goin the same career talk...at the ava rm,there were pple..haha..kamal and shit...gerek siot...ahaha..believe it or not...we WENT ON AIR on power 98...the hot chick hu came told us to say POWER 98 fm went she went on air with her fren afta...so we did..haha...and kamal like always extra extra go say red hot radio...then we shouted..well...it was kinda cool...very cool..hahah....so now here i am in the room typin this shit...so fuck off

ladoodadeedoodadee...hahah...woot...tiring...my whole body aching like fuck...argh...ass cramp xia..cheesebun..well...err....KUOK EN BASTARD US TODAY....knn...fuck xia..made us wait outside his hse fer abt 3 hrs???cheesbun...luckily we were fortunate to have the laughin gas to entertain us..hahha...fuck yea...this time round we took it in pairs and groups and danced like a fucking idiot..hahah..did some camera trickshot and stuff..so thats all..gotta go shit.arh!!!

ahhhhhh....*phew*...fucking tired sial....play soccer since 11 till now which is 740...woot...like marathon..in between we got breaks and got one time we went to buy laughing gas...ahahahahha...funnie sial....woo...ahahha...laughin like one fuckin idiot....hahah....there was me nas kamal muhsin and usof...hahah...laugh laugh laugh..but shiok..i love to fuckin smile..heee..den played soccer again...at 110 there...play my fuckin balls off..hahah...well tats all i guess..too fuckin tired to type laa..hahahah..adios..fuck off

waa...i got lotsa stuff to say today....hmm wear shuld i begin....hmm...k here goes...TODAY IS FRIDAY...

Yea!!!!!!!!!t0day got our fucking O'Level results mann!!!!!!!wooooooooo!!!!!!!!!heee...budda.....got b3!!!!dammit...and MERIT for oral....WTF...well nvm..at least i gave my best...n0w im in a dillemma whether to retake or nt...cheesebun...headache xia...woot....today was a gweat day....had pe...oh ya...ass....played sumkind of baseball shit/softball/rounders...and first inning got hurt!!CHEESEBUN!!!first batter was up....(drum roll)michelle...and i played short stop...caught her ball and raced to the 1st based...tagged her out and then *BANG*....woahh..full impact xia...and my neck had a whiplash...goddamit...n0w pain like hell...and she said i loike cushion..dammit..hahah...well..nvm...i str0ng..so i won hav ani revenge on you...or will i??hmm...heee...well...tired xia wanna write summore...bye!!FUck off

Woot!!!spore idol??hmm..wats my FUCKIN opnion?well fer some...ure jus makin a fool of yourselfs mann...wat a fuckin idiot..dun u have ego?haha...well not me..tats why i dint fuckin go fer the auditions..well..not now..MAEBE..hahahha.,...hee..waa..today fuckin tiring...afta school straight go gay hse jam den fuckin tiring shout here shout there...then went hme...guess wat ive got no fucking key and theres no one at hme!!fucking hell..had to sit there like a fckin idiot..finally my sis came home..and theres another fucking twist...bathe..GOT TUITION!!!fuck XIA!!!knn...well..tats my day today..haha

Woot...decided to post twice today...haha...fuck yea...fuckin enthu t0day...hahah....hmm...where shall i begin...oh yar...supp0sed to go jam today but that fuckin kuok en cant fuckin make it coz go fuckin play tennis...wtf man...hmm...so went to marina square with sham farhan kamal buy b0xing stuff..heee...so watch out ya'll...this i a makin of a new muhammad ali...fuck yea...gonna blow ure head off man if u fuckin piss me!!haha...den we walked to esplanade...went to cavana to eat blah blah blah den went to haigen daiz to buy fudge and a can of coke...FUCKIN HELL!!!d coke cost me 3 fUCKIN bucks...wat a rip off mann...knn...and the fudge was like 6 bucks..knn xia...d box cheesebun damn huge..but the fudge was like err..mini?cb..rip off..well.headed to the river..chilled fer awhile and along came usof...then the party started haha...not long dinah and eka come along..haha...had fun although lotsa fuckin stuff runnin thru my fuckin mind...its kinda tiring u noe...no peace in my mind...fuck...we walked back to city hall and went back...inside the train oso havoc...laugh like nobody business..disturb dinah..hahah..lalalala...now back at home..got tuition afta dis...fuck xia...knn...hmm i wonder what i shuld do to forget abt it...tried chillin with my pals..it dint work...ass...fuck fuck fuck...well...lalalalala...oh ya...heard they were backie together....well happy fer ya guys...all the best mann.....so fuckin off now!!!!!!!

eyy FUCKERS...its me...my old FUCKIN self again....no more tushy tushy fuckin shit stuff no more mann...yea...FUCKIN no....coz im FUCKIN tired of always being hurt in the fuckin end...there will neva be an end to my FUCKING misery...why mus it always be fuckin me....fucking hell..well...lets not tok abt tat...hmm...yesterday was a fuckin day to forgot coz lotsa a fuckin stuff happened tat i wished it dint fucking happened....bits of pieces of my fuckin heart still yet to be mended but fuck i can still live with halve of my fuckin heart...u see...i was fuckin fooled...fooled by my own words....maebe tat wasnt the fuckin rite choice...well..fuck wat...its over now..yea?couldnt fuckin sleep last nitee thinking abt the fuckin incident...didnt noe why it had to turn out fuckin that way....arhh...fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...today got lotsa fuckin plans...go buy fuckin boxing gloves..go out with cuzzie and go fuckin jam..so tight schedule ...hope it will help me stop thinking of that fuckin incident..well fuck off!!

i wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do, is grow old with you
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.


Felt like puttin this song..hee..dunnoe why..nice..hee..




HALLLOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!woahh....Today's monday..spore bday...hahahah...happie bday i guess...woot....giddy xia n0w...onli got like 5 hrs of sleep...hahah...yesterday was a very NICE DAY!!!or shuld i say nite...hee....held a bbq at me hse an invited sum of my classmates..heee...shiok....len and zhen came first...me and eug sneaked behind them frm the bs and took fotos of em..hahaha....cool beans...then Michelle francis wh ys syl nazmi came..hahah...and the party started....hee...ate and ate and ate...too bad she cant eat...hee...forgot to buy mashmellow fer her laa alamak..well nvm..at least she had fun...i hope so..i noe i did..heee.....hmm....took tons of fotos...then ard 11 almost everyone went back except me nick and eug,,,they sleptover..hahah...we went to 711 at 2 and drank and did some stupid shit...went back watch a ghost show...and nick slept thru halfway da show...hahah..stupid....i reali waited fer your call u noe!!!dun believe me ask em...hee...slept at 5 woke up at 10...den eug nik went backie...now head giddie...heee.....Thanxx ya'll fer comin down to my crib fer the bbq..appreaciate it..yea...oh ya..forgot one thing the admission fee was 10 bucks per head...be collectin it on wed.chiaoo

I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souvenirs.
I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights, and the cool guys that you spent them with.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.
Don't you see, don't you see,that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.
So kiss me hard'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday
and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips will be of service
to keeping you away.
I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.
Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing.
I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late
too late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes

and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you and you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste my time with you should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste my time with youshould've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
waste some time with you

today national day celebration at school...woo shiok!!!!!!!!hee..havoc xia me usop nasir all at hall....sang our lungs out make pple look like fools and comes the best part...made a human train and went up and down the stage with all the teachers and old pple on the stage singin song..heee...paiseh xia...but fun...heee..lucky never kana scoldin...hee...fuck...blah blah blah..den went back to class...fuckin hell..our class noticeboard fuckin nice xia..hee..den took photos with the class then took a pic of me with all the galss...woo...became a pimp fer a min..well..tats good enuf fer me..heee..den took pics with michhie....den wit zhen...den dinah....den with usof they all...den ina..haha...so nice take photo...i loike..heee....hmm..now at home..got fever again..fuck!!!!!!!!!so signin off!

woot!!!!waddup ya'll....now im gettin lazier to post xia...soo sorry ehh to my faithful fans!!heeee....:P...hmm...today shiok!!...i mean at kuok hse...we jam as usual but sumthin diff happen today..firstly...usof played the bass..hee...nasir our bassist strucked by chicken pox...wtf...at this age?!!knn...at this time summore....the time when jammin session became more intensive...then there was the the making of the video of nillius!!!woo...nice xia..play the innocent,hell song and the reason..woo..cool xia...err...i mean me.not themm...heee..kiddin..all of us look more cooll...onli kuok need to work on his techniques and facial expression...but still cool!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...i all alone in my hse..dammit...scary...heee..peace off!!